Hey eeb123, my sincerest thoughts and prayers go out to you, as have experienced two babies lost myself (my first turned into cancer and the second one was a missed miscarriage)....on top of being T1, I can't imagine all that you are going through, as I wasn't diagnosed as t2 at the time of my misses.....but the extreme emotional rollercoaster, hormonal imbalance and shock to your system, the grieving....it does take time for sure....no one can say they understand if they haven't lost a baby as it is not only the death of the child, but dreams and hopes....I really don't know what else to say except that you have every right to feel as you do and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise. Life does go on, which right now may seem so bizarre.....but it sounds like you have a great Hubby who loves you and is traveling this path with you. Keep posting how you are getting on - it is safe to rant and rave here on this Forum...Hugs/Blessings/Prayers/L