Mixed emotions

[EmmaRose]

I'm 21 and have been T1 diabetic for 2 years and for the first 5/6 months I controlled it so well. Then I went to uni and and found it so hard to look after myself on the diabetic front. I have never been one to opening up so none of my friends or family realise how much i'v struggled to balance everything.

In the past 6 months everything diabetic related has really got to me and I feel like I'm struggling even more. I don't know of anyone else who is diabetic so I have never really spoken to anyone about how I feel.

All my family and friends are fantastic with support and all the rest of it but I still feel like I get really lonely and depressed. Even though one day I can be really happy and enjoying life, the next I feel like utter *****. (Excuse my language)
Today has been the first real day of summer and it has been glorious sunshine, but my blood sugars have been sky high and I recently got results from uni which weren't so good and I now have to resit some modules.

I guess this post is me getting things off my chest but I wanted to know if anyone else gets down over nothing or small issues ? And if so what do you do to pick yourself up? I don't think I can handle being all over the place anymore.

 

[Atalay]

Honestly, I am the only one around here in the neighbourhood with T1, and feel lonely about getting support. My family is not really helping, so I am kinda bymyself. I know how you feel when you can not control your blood sugar level, and feel not motivated. I have no problem controlling sugar level, its just I have no one to talk or get support, so, get motivated. I struggle finding energy to do my workouts everynight, because it gets boring after a week.

What I do is I throw myself to the gym, thinking that I am a soldier to win a battle, murmuring first few minutes, put some music I like, think of the jeans I could wear, finally seratonin kicks in, I feel happier. I can do it every night as long as I am not depressed over something. Else, I go downstairs and eat the cakes and candies my father got home for himself. I hate when that happens, and I sometimes lose it about a week.

Then I found this forum, read what others do, how they motivate one another. Here reading helps me a lot than I could think of, so I will stick to the forums to get motivated, find friends who are like me, like you, talk and open up.

Im glad you are here, too. So, we can energize each other for better results for a better living.

If not succesful today, start again tomorrow... Someday you will get used to the routine, feel more powerful.

 

[Samsquamch]

I totally get what your going through.

My advice would be to focus on your sugars, 2 years ago when I was in college (and I failed hard) I wouldn't look after my sugars at all, Well I would give it a half ***** effort, but I should of been trying harder.

Anyways, when I was high blood sugars, I couldn't concentrate at all, would get agitated very easily and feel very down.

I couldn't concentrate and ended up dropping out to pursue a job opportunity but if you are dedicated to your studies then I believe you should try your best to get under control, and I know its hard. Ive been diagnosed for 15 years and I struggle most days, and it can get you down but my friends and family understand and my mum is really helpful with it all.

As someone who's 20 years old and having complications with my eyes and feet and kidneys, I urge you to try your hardest to get under control! good luck

 

[urbanracer]

Hi @EmmaRose

Doesn't everybody get a bit down about something silly now and then? I don't think it's a prerequisite that you have to be a diabetic to experience this. So diabetes just adds to the pile of rubbish we have to deal with everyday and makes things a bit more tedious for us.

Of course you'll realise too that high blood sugars can affect your moods, but are you clear about which comes first with you? High blood sugars giving rise to low moods or the other way round. Possibly understanding this may help to break the cycle ??

Is there something you can focus on when you feel that way, something you enjoy doing ? favorite music?

Good luck with the re-sits !

 

[himtoo]

Hi EmmaRose
Welcome to the forum
there is no easy age to be diagnosed but 19 does seem a particularly hard age to me.
just when you are starting life in the real world following school you get lumbered with this crazy condition that nobody else has or even seems to have heard of.
it can happen to any of us but it sounds to me like you are suffering from diabetes burnout.
there are topics on the forum about this.http://www.diabetes.co.uk/forum/threads/diabetes-burnout.74048/

i am going to tag a great young lady I have met on the forum who is your age and might be able to offer some support.
@becky.ford93

 

[becky.ford93]

Hey Emma can't say I've had type one as long as you yet, but I too am at uni. I find what I've struggled with isn't the diabetes, or uni...its both put together! Constantly feel like I was doing well at uni before and now all the stress has made everything harder. Good luck with your resits, if you need anyone to moan at let me know! You may find you can apply for extenuating circumstances too, particularly if you had a hypo/hyper episode during an exam, or if you were ill during an assignment because of your diabetes.