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Never Getting It Right

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Auckland Canary

Well-Known Member
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286
Location
London
Type of diabetes
Type 1
Treatment type
Insulin
I have just had my check up with the nurse and my HBA1c has dropped again to 6.1% (43) when I had been seeing a gradual increase over the last 6 months. I had been feeling better since doing DAFNE in the summer and not having frequent hypo's.
I really wanted to reapply for my licence again as we have bought a new car which will be delivered in March but am back to square 1 again as I have another appointment in 3 months and can't really do anything until then.

It's just bloody depressing because when I try and increase my averages I just seem to end up with readings in the teens which is obviously not healthy.

I am not looking for answers but every time I come out of an appointment I feel like a failure and it's 1 step forward and 2 steps back.

I am thinking about giving up on driving again as I get so stressed out by trying to meet all the criteria. The irony is that as I am not allowed to drive I cycle everywhere which makes it harder to control my levels.

Just feeling grumpy and thanks for listening. Big pile of ****.
 
Are you saying your disappointed with the Hba1c of 6.1 and wanted it higher to get your licence back....hence why you say you've seen a gradual increase over the months with fewer hypo's?

There are factors that can give a low Hba1c than one would expect and I think one could be anaemia (?).
 
Is your intention to raise your hba1c, or maintain it at 6.1?

Have you been keeping a BG diary to see when your rising and falling? Establishing a pattern is a good place to start and make changes from


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I am continually being told my HBA1c's are always too low and this must mean that I am having hypo's. I was having severe night time hypos in the summer as well as continually having lows in the day as well .I did DAFNE and things improved immeasurably and I no longer have the night time hypos but after an increase a few months ago to about 6.4% they have slipped back again. I log all of my readings and know how to adjust.
But it never seems good enough for the medical staff. In the past I have withdrawn my self from appointments because I can't face the constant feeling that I am failing in everything.

In reality what I am trying to say is I am just bloody bored and irritated with being Type 1 and being made to feel like I'm doing it wrong . As I said earlier I'm not looking for answers as I know what the answers are, I am just seemingly unable to achieve them. I'm just having a rant really. Problem is when I get like this I start to behave self destructively and either deliberately stop injecting insulin for periods of time or just stop testing etc. It's not healthy but I hate myself so I stop bothering with it. I'm not going to but the temptation is there
 
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