Obviously some on here lack the ability to appreciate the difficult situation I am in. I refuse to feel ashamed for any feelings I have and am working hard to pull through this without doing something that actually would be cause for shame but it was a very, very long time since I felt this overwhelming physical attraction that is damaging to my peace of mind, my sleep and my ability to concentrate. Slightest accidental touch - or possibly not so accidental, I don't know and I won´t go to any lengths to find out - turns me into a shivering wreck from desire.
But, as I think I told you to some length, we have become firm friends who talk about high and low and joke a lot, go for long walks, work very well together, cook together, go swimming every day together. And his mum seems to very happy he has been able to spend all this time with us as he is so happy to be here. And hubby is smiling and in a good mood.
Last night we were out on a reef looking for seals as he wished to see them, a very still, warm and humid summer evening, absolutely marvellously wonderful and there were seals too.
All in all this is wonderful and very tiring and it does make me feel alive in every fibre of my body and mind, if you can have fibres in the mind that is but you know what I mean. And he will leave us early Monday morning so I hope I can handle the situation until then without doing anything stupid.