Oh dear, this was unexpected

Totto said:

Obviously some on here lack the ability to appreciate the difficult situation I am in. I refuse to feel ashamed for any feelings I have and am working hard to pull through this without doing something that actually would be cause for shame but it was a very, very long time since I felt this overwhelming physical attraction that is damaging to my peace of mind, my sleep and my ability to concentrate. Slightest accidental touch - or possibly not so accidental, I don't know and I won´t go to any lengths to find out - turns me into a shivering wreck from desire.

But, as I think I told you to some length, we have become firm friends who talk about high and low and joke a lot, go for long walks, work very well together, cook together, go swimming every day together. And his mum seems to very happy he has been able to spend all this time with us as he is so happy to be here. And hubby is smiling and in a good mood.

Last night we were out on a reef looking for seals as he wished to see them, a very still, warm and humid summer evening, absolutely marvellously wonderful and there were seals too.

All in all this is wonderful and very tiring and it does make me feel alive in every fibre of my body and mind, if you can have fibres in the mind that is but you know what I mean. And he will leave us early Monday morning so I hope I can handle the situation until then without doing anything stupid.

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Jill the tt said:

i am really sorry, i do't know what else to say, i really do wish you well. i do understand how much work a farm is, my grandparents farmed, a good friend did, they never had a holiday.
i'm afraid i have no idea about the towie reference i've not seen it, i don't watch soaps. i have no problem with anne summers.
this is the first forum i've been on, joined looking for help, found so much info that put me on the right path, and some awesome people.
i did ask for help about eating for my travel plans, sadly no help. my husband is on a few forums, i asked him why no one helped, he said forums have a flow and i wasn't in the gang, i believe him now.

i ran my own business successfully for nearly 30yrs so can work things out for myself, being 6months into being diabetic have been so unsure of myself, i can get over that , am now giving myself a stern talking to for being needy.

i really hope your life gets easier, and your new friend stays a friend to you. i wish you well

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Brunneria said:

I missed your travel/food query thread, I think. It's the kind of thing I would have stuck my oar into if I'd seen it.
Can you pop in a link to it? We can always bump it up to the top of the list again.

With forums, it always depends on time of day, flow (as your hubby says) and what else is going on - oh, and who is most active...

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Jaylee said:

Awww, Jill. Yer cool by me.. The only other forum I'm involved in, is the Japanese car import scene.. & that can get "brutal".. Lol

Vorsprung durch Technik..! As they say..

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Jill the tt said:

i am really sorry, i do't know what else to say, i really do wish you well. i do understand how much work a farm is, my grandparents farmed, a good friend did, they never had a holiday.
i'm afraid i have no idea about the towie reference i've not seen it, i don't watch soaps. i have no problem with anne summers.
this is the first forum i've been on, joined looking for help, found so much info that put me on the right path, and some awesome people.
i did ask for help about eating for my travel plans, sadly no help. my husband is on a few forums, i asked him why no one helped, he said forums have a flow and i wasn't in the gang, i believe him now.

i ran my own business successfully for nearly 30yrs so can work things out for myself, being 6months into being diabetic have been so unsure of myself, i can get over that , am now giving myself a stern talking to for being needy.

i really hope your life gets easier, and your new friend stays a friend to you. i wish you well

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Jill the tt said:

thanks, i can't find it, i thought it was under ask a question, i think i have a plan for myself now, was just worried about the length of time planning what to eat and when. i can sort it thanks for the help

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Scandichic said:

There is a logical reason for no reply to your previous thread. If lots of people open a new thread at the same time then your thread within a couple of hours will be on page 2 or 3 so if like me, people look under new threads, they only look at the first page and miss your thread. The only way, if this happens, that it will get seen is if people look under the headings or if they go through a few of the pages. If you would like a specific member to respond then you can type @ before their forum name. Hope this helps.

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Totto said:

Probably @Scandichick is the only one on here who will know what "nubbesallad" is but we had that today for dinner as it was too hot to cook or eat anything warmer than room temperature, that is 30 degrees C. It consists of matjees, a kind of pickled herring, chopped red onions, diced potatoes that can be substituted with something else and a sauce or dressing of mayonnaise, creme fraiche and sour cream, all mixed together and served on a heap of lettuce. Usually served as a starter but in this hot weather we have it as main dish now and then, the pickled maatjees herring is salty and that is what we need.

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Yorksman said:

I get mine from Lidl

However, if I can get whole matjes fillets, I make Matjes nach Hausfrauenart:

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Totto said:

Knickers still on.

What I wished for was to go for a walk down our land to the sea and lay down and cuddle him a bit, and that is exactly what we did with no real prompting on my part, he managed quite well to steer us to where we apparently both wanted to be. Very sweet and rather innocent and nothing really has happened, we didn't even kiss but it was close. We spent a few hours laying there while it got dark, talking, in each others arms.

And I can´t tell you what a relief it is to know this hasn't been going on only in my mind but was a mutual attraction.

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Totto said:

I feel so utterly sad and forlorn it hurts. Took him to the bus this morning. Hopefully we will be able to meet sometime in September, before he goes back to France.

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