To Diomede
I suppose I am striving, even though I think my recent diebetes efforts re weight are screwed, to be better.I got my 30 day meter average ro 4.9 at one point, last one was 5.9 most recently, when I walked a lot in Cornwall I got really low without insulin and stopped all the shots. I think I was asking forum members whether this was unwise and had contributed to me running a series of 7,s when for the past 8 months sugars were lower. I fully take your point but I would rather be lower than high but perhaps I am subconsciously trying to deny that I am diabetic?.
To be honest some of the health service attention , whilst wel;come, makes you feel like ****. My weight had gone up and my dietician kept rolling her eyes and looked very depressed saying "You must have higher sugars than this at your increased weight" she then seemed to take some pleasure in letting me know that cucumber contains a carb trace and handing me some poxy diet sheet saying(Subliminally cos they call it meal monitoring then suggest the meals even down to measuring the diameter of f~~~~@@ spoons) that my Sunday lunch should consist of 3 wafer thin slices of chicken, 3 small new potatoes and a poxy little spoonful of peas,. might as well be dead (By the way my meal plate is 6 incches across and never piled high I do blended curries and other meals without fat but have a wine weakness). I have tested a lot since including very frequent tests on said cornish coast path but sometimes you just think "f~~~ it, whatever" It seems everyone wants you to take some test or other when you really want to say "Leave me the F#### alone , my blood sugar is good, get off my case".I just want to live my life without high readings so I suppose thats why I got panicky when they inched upward.
To all of you, where is the balance here, when do you stop obsessing about this horribly named condition that sends every clip-board waving funding chaser in the world on your tail yet you just want to be normal.To be blunt, wheres the F'''##ing line here?
RPNKW