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Hey guys it's me yet again and I hope you won't despair of me as I need you all now more than ever. Well I told you all a few weeks ago that I was starting therapy as I have been diagnosed with depression.
Okay well here is we're I would really appreciate any advice ( I know your not drs but you guys are also level headed ) you may recall that just after diabetes was diagnosed I lost my sense of taste and I noticed my pupils had gone small . Now I have had an MRI and screening and seen four eye Drs who hve looked in the back of my eyes.
So this week my diabetic eye screening came back normal and I am still awaiting my results for my MRI .
One of the thing with my Anxiety is I am constantly checking things now I have noticed that when I close one eye and look through the other things look very different and so does the colour , right what I mean is my right eye seems to show a warmer colour and my left just seems darker and like a colder colour ...
This is me being very honest today I spent two hrs looking at one eye then the other my eye on the left also looks puffed up more thn the right,
Now last night my husband sat and cried because he says he feels my anxiety as taken me away from my family and he doesn't know what to do.
I know this is a diabetic forum and trust me I love you all for the support you have shown me , my question to you tonight is this my husband says he thinks everyone sees things different through one thn the other including light ?
He says he thinks any issues with the optic nerve would have shown in the diabetic eye screening ?
He says the diabetic eye screening alone really as a good look at your eyes ?
He thinks I would have herd something about the MRI ( three weeks ago) if it was serious ?
I was due to have my next three month diabetic blood test end of last week but my friend as had a stroke and the nurse says having it next week will be fine as I went to friends last week.
Now I have lost another half stone and I am doing all I can.
Guys please just have a look at this and tell me if you cn what you think . At the moment I feel like I am chasing my own tail I don't know if my hubby is talking sense or utter nonsense xxxx
 
The change in colour could be due to a cataract (quite common in diabetes) - in which case colours would be more yellow and a bit hazy, especially looking at a bright light.
 
Hi Robert , I am just hoping all this is just normal as I have had so many drs look t my eyes . They all said they re fine would they hve not seen a cataract ?
 
Sharon Anne said:
Hi Robert , I am just hoping all this is just normal as I have had so many drs look t my eyes . They all said they re fine would they hve not seen a cataract ?
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It's front of the eye but, yes, I am sure they would if it was significant.
 
Hi, I'm glad you are getting some help and the meds take a couple of months to have their effect.
Worry about what you worry about for now. You've had good tests by the look of it. Though you may feel you need more
Truly you may have every test in the world and it wouldn't feel enough.

Do things that you like to do and tell hubby you'll be back to your old self soon.
 
Hi Sharon Anne/
It realy does sound like your eyes are healthy.
Are you able to get help with your anxiety? its an awful thing,I had a bad time with it a couple of months ago and it takes over your life.The forum helped me and I also talked to the doctor about it and he gave me some medication for a few months and I feel beter ,
I used to wake up fealing a sort of fear of somthing bad was going to happen,it was stress .
I hope you soon feel better.
 
Thank you all x I am so scared x the thing is my biggest health conduion mt OI ( brittle bone ) to date as never got me like this xx Hi Patricia21 yes I am just starting therapy but she says until I get my MRI results she thinks my mind is else where and I know it is .
It was three weeks ago now so I keep thinking well that's gots to be good then the monster wakes up.
I am deaf so my eyes are my ears and they just dont seem right but four eye drs one opticsion and a neurologist and the diabetic screening would surely of seen something x I am just so scred this is a tumour xx
I am so sorry for being such a complete pain in the bum.
 
Hello again Sharon Anne.
The medication for depression takes a few weeks to help you .you may know that.
I had a CT scan and never heard a thing after six weeks ,so I phoned the hospital,CT department and they gave me the number of the doctors receptionist ,I was told there was nothing serious,and I would get a routine appointment .so I worried then what they were going to say and it was just to tell me all was well.
I agree with your husband,had it been serious you would have heard,
Try not to worry .I know its easier said than done
You are not a pain in the bum x
 
Sounds like you have health anxiety. It isn't surprising when you have been through what you have lately. You just need to get things into perspective.
I am having to take my own advice here too.

Don't worry about the things you have no control over. Health anxiety is prominent when you don't believe what doctors tell you and you think they might be missing something, or that the thing you have is much more serious than it is. You can convince yourself you know.

Don't take this the wrong way and take this with the kindness intended.
It's hard for a loved one with a very anxious person. Often the very anxious person seems irrational. When you aren't anxious it can be wearing. You have to try and understand your husband as much as he has to understand you.

To help the situation you ideally need counselling or therapy. You don;t sound like you are in the right place to do it all with self-help. If you are then start with repeating
I will accept the things I cannot change
You can worry yourself stupid and at the end of the day have nothing to gain from the worrying. The more you worry the worse any physcial symptom will feel - it gets magnified. When it gets magnified, you actually begin to believe the irrational even more. -like you have justified the need to be that worried. It's a vicious cycle that you must break.

Try and work with your husband to keep things calmer. He is worried about you and it's affecting him. Believe me if something is very wrong with you, docs notify you pronto. When weeks fly by you have less chance of it being anything serious.
 
Patricia21 said:
Hello again Sharon Anne.
The medication for depression takes a few weeks to help you .you may know that.
I had a CT scan and never heard a thing after six weeks ,so I phoned the hospital,CT department and they gave me the number of the doctors receptionist ,I was told there was nothing serious,and I would get a routine appointment .so I worried then what they were going to say and it was just to tell me all was well.
I agree with your husband,had it been serious you would have heard,
Try not to worry .I know its easier said than done
You are not a pain in the bum x
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Thank you so much x my husband is just about managing to support me xx the thing is you know it's not right don't you Hun but have no idea how to stop it xxx
 
SJC said:
Sounds like you have health anxiety. It isn't surprising when you have been through what you have lately. You just need to get things into perspective.
I am having to take my own advice here too.

Don't worry about the things you have no control over. Health anxiety is prominent when you don't believe what doctors tell you and you think they might be missing something, or that the thing you have is much more serious than it is. You can convince yourself you know.

Don't take this the wrong way and take this with the kindness intended.
It's hard for a loved one with a very anxious person. Often the very anxious person seems irrational. When you aren't anxious it can be wearing. You have to try and understand your husband as much as he has to understand you.

To help the situation you ideally need counselling or therapy. You don;t sound like you are in the right place to do it all with self-help. If you are then start with repeating
I will accept the things I cannot change
You can worry yourself stupid and at the end of the day have nothing to gain from the worrying. The more you worry the worse any physcial symptom will feel - it gets magnified. When it gets magnified, you actually begin to believe the irrational even more. -like you have justified the need to be that worried. It's a vicious cycle that you must break.

Try and work with your husband to keep things calmer. He is worried about you and it's affecting him. Believe me if something is very wrong with you, docs notify you pronto. When weeks fly by you have less chance of it being anything serious.
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Thank you so very very much xx I hadn't looked at it from Steves point x he is at his wits end and to be honest so is my Son.
I am starting to see that I do need help and even though I am now in therapy it's early days x your right I spend hours looking at my eyes and they just get worse , then I go how could they know that !!!! Thank you so much SJC , I promise I will fight this dragon xxx
 
I was told that MRI results are ready in 3-4 days so if you haven't heard from them then it's probably all good!
If you had a cataract any of the doctors would have seen it -especially when doing diabetic retinopathy screening because it would make it hard for them to see the back of your eye ( I have cataracts in both eyes).

Take care! Big hugs!
 
PaulinaB said:
I was told that MRI results are ready in 3-4 days so if you haven't heard from them then it's probably all good!
If you had a cataract any of the doctors would have seen it -especially when doing diabetic retinopathy screening because it would make it hard for them to see the back of your eye ( I have cataracts in both eyes).

Take care! Big hugs!
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Thank you so much x you have really helped , so far they have found nothing apart from the fact I need stronger glasses .
The thing is all the drs I hve seen were from the eye casuality all four of them x I am sorry I know it sounds crazy but my eyes are my biggest fear with my hearing loss xx
Thnk you so much for taking the time to talk to me and offer some reasurence it means so much xxx
 
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