mhoggarth said:Hi all,
As my post is entitled, I am seriously depressed. I feel worthless, lonely and just awful every single night for the past year, even more.
I drink heavily every night, and I cant seem to stop. I'm in a downward spiral, and I seriously don't know how to get out of it.
Tonight I physically broke down in front of my friends.
I'm actually scared to go to the doctors about it. And I feel like destroying myself everyday about it.
I'm not looking for advice on here, I no what I need to do.
I just needed to write it down and get it out there. I need to sort my life out. My levels have been awful and I lie to everyone I know.
I'm on a course of self destruction. And I need to stop.
Sorry for wasting people's time reading this. I just needed to get this out.
mhoggarth said:Thank you so much for these replies, seriously thanks.
I still havent got the balls to make an appointment to see the doctor yet, but my friends swept my flat and removed all my alcohol (some i didnt even realised id hidden in places) and they have been making sure that im not lonely too much.
Thats the worst part tho, i now feel like im a burden on my friends and that they feel obligated to look after me.
To answer GlazedDoughnuts, im lonely, single (fiancee left me), fed up of being diabetic, the constant looking after yourself and testing, and i drink too much which makes it all worse, and my levels are awful lately
ive not drank since sunday night and i have been happier since writing this post, but its going to be a long road, and i think when i feel braver, i will go to the doctors
mhoggarth said:Thank you so much for these replies, seriously thanks.
I still havent got the balls to make an appointment to see the doctor yet, but my friends swept my flat and removed all my alcohol (some i didnt even realised id hidden in places) and they have been making sure that im not lonely too much.
Thats the worst part tho, i now feel like im a burden on my friends and that they feel obligated to look after me.
To answer GlazedDoughnuts, im lonely, single (fiancee left me), fed up of being diabetic, the constant looking after yourself and testing, and i drink too much which makes it all worse, and my levels are awful lately
ive not drank since sunday night and i have been happier since writing this post, but its going to be a long road, and i think when i feel braver, i will go to the doctors
Robinredbreast said:Give yourself a well deserved pat on the back. It can be very hard to bare all and you have been brave enoght to do it and that a stepo in the right direction.
How is the not drinking going? giving up something can be difficult and you will need a lot of guts, willpower and determination.It will only work if you really want to do it. I wish you all the best, good luck and you are in my thoughts :thumbup:
RRB
mhoggarth said:Robinredbreast said:Give yourself a well deserved pat on the back. It can be very hard to bare all and you have been brave enoght to do it and that a stepo in the right direction.
How is the not drinking going? giving up something can be difficult and you will need a lot of guts, willpower and determination.It will only work if you really want to do it. I wish you all the best, good luck and you are in my thoughts :thumbup:
RRB
Its the hardest thing ive ever done. And that isnt a lie. Quitting smoking was easier. Ive gone from drinking heavily every night to nothing at all.
The first couple of nights i felt awful and as if i couldnt concentrate or do anything. Last night was better, and i know it will get easier each night.
My real achievement was that i went shopping, and did not buy any. I can not remember the last time i did that.
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