hellobear007
Active Member
Hi all
I am a very low ebb with everything, sorry if this post seems to ramble on but I need to try and get everything out and hope that maybe someone will understand.
I am 28, was diagnosed at 13. Never really had great control over my blood sugars but badly abused my body in my late teens / early 20's through alcohol abuse and not eating properly.
I have not touched a drop of alcohol for 6 years but my diet has been poor, lots of takeaways and convenience foods, cakes etc which has resulted in macular degeneration.
I have been on anti depressants (venlafaxine) since the age of 18, I cant get off them, ive asked for help but no one seems to listen. Also hooked on diazepam which I use to try and get some sleep as I have bad insomnia.
I have taken the DAFNE course and learnt how to carb count although ive only recently started doing this again.
My blood sugar levels are never below 14, I mostly average about 17 and often in the 20s, and sometimes 30s.
For a long time I was taking 40 lantus in the evening, and around 80 humalog througout the day, not really testing my sugars and eating whatever I liked.
Because of my crazy sleep pattern my mealtimes are totally messed up. I dont usually eat until around 7pm and then again at about 1 or 2am. I occasionally snack on fruit, yoghurs, crackers if I am awake earlier or up until early morning. My GP seems to think I can change my sleep pattern overnight, but after years of living like this it seems impossible.
After going back to see my DSN, utterly depressed with everything she suggested I was taking too much insulin!! and that my body had become used to it. We discussed everything and now I am carb counting again and with my DSN advice have lowered my insulin levels. I now take 30 lantus in the evening and stick to the carb ratio of 1 unit to every 10g of carbs, and I use 1 unit to reduce my insulin level by 2mmol in a correctional dose.
I chucked out all of the junk food and filled up on fresh fruit and veg, pasta etc... all good slow release carbs but my blood sugars keep RISING. Even with a correctional dose the insulin does not seem to make any difference at all. Im testing 5 + times a day to try and build up a pattern of whats going on. Have changed injection sites etc but nothing is working.
For example, before my dinner (I made my own sweet and sour chicken, steamed rice and veg and chicken, microwaved the sauce) my blood was 17.8. I added up the carbs in my meal to be 80g so I took 8 units and an extra 6 units as a correctional dose. Now, 3 hours later my blood is 24.9!!
I keep doing correctional doses throughout the day but it never works. The more insulin I give myself with the correctional dose the hungrier I feel. I have so far managed to ignore the hunger pangs and only snack on an apple or orange if really hungry. And still I get the blood sugar spikes.
I have an appointment with my DSN in 3 weeks but I dont know whether to contact her before then as surely giving myself correctional doses of about 8 units a time and it not working... something is wrong. I also take Metformin 500mg with my dinner.
I am sorry this post is so long, I just needed to get it all out somehow
I know the complications I am suffering from the years of abuse are my own fault, but now I feel the harder I try to take control of my diabetes (and my life) the further I am losing it... I hate it so much and it makes me so angry that I cry. I have never not taken an injection, I relent it at times but I just want it to work.
Have asked about the pump but apparantly I dont meet the criterea??
Thanks to anyone for listening to my rant, sorry to be so downbeat xxx
Diane
I am a very low ebb with everything, sorry if this post seems to ramble on but I need to try and get everything out and hope that maybe someone will understand.
I am 28, was diagnosed at 13. Never really had great control over my blood sugars but badly abused my body in my late teens / early 20's through alcohol abuse and not eating properly.
I have not touched a drop of alcohol for 6 years but my diet has been poor, lots of takeaways and convenience foods, cakes etc which has resulted in macular degeneration.
I have been on anti depressants (venlafaxine) since the age of 18, I cant get off them, ive asked for help but no one seems to listen. Also hooked on diazepam which I use to try and get some sleep as I have bad insomnia.
I have taken the DAFNE course and learnt how to carb count although ive only recently started doing this again.
My blood sugar levels are never below 14, I mostly average about 17 and often in the 20s, and sometimes 30s.
For a long time I was taking 40 lantus in the evening, and around 80 humalog througout the day, not really testing my sugars and eating whatever I liked.
Because of my crazy sleep pattern my mealtimes are totally messed up. I dont usually eat until around 7pm and then again at about 1 or 2am. I occasionally snack on fruit, yoghurs, crackers if I am awake earlier or up until early morning. My GP seems to think I can change my sleep pattern overnight, but after years of living like this it seems impossible.
After going back to see my DSN, utterly depressed with everything she suggested I was taking too much insulin!! and that my body had become used to it. We discussed everything and now I am carb counting again and with my DSN advice have lowered my insulin levels. I now take 30 lantus in the evening and stick to the carb ratio of 1 unit to every 10g of carbs, and I use 1 unit to reduce my insulin level by 2mmol in a correctional dose.
I chucked out all of the junk food and filled up on fresh fruit and veg, pasta etc... all good slow release carbs but my blood sugars keep RISING. Even with a correctional dose the insulin does not seem to make any difference at all. Im testing 5 + times a day to try and build up a pattern of whats going on. Have changed injection sites etc but nothing is working.
For example, before my dinner (I made my own sweet and sour chicken, steamed rice and veg and chicken, microwaved the sauce) my blood was 17.8. I added up the carbs in my meal to be 80g so I took 8 units and an extra 6 units as a correctional dose. Now, 3 hours later my blood is 24.9!!
I keep doing correctional doses throughout the day but it never works. The more insulin I give myself with the correctional dose the hungrier I feel. I have so far managed to ignore the hunger pangs and only snack on an apple or orange if really hungry. And still I get the blood sugar spikes.
I have an appointment with my DSN in 3 weeks but I dont know whether to contact her before then as surely giving myself correctional doses of about 8 units a time and it not working... something is wrong. I also take Metformin 500mg with my dinner.
I am sorry this post is so long, I just needed to get it all out somehow

I know the complications I am suffering from the years of abuse are my own fault, but now I feel the harder I try to take control of my diabetes (and my life) the further I am losing it... I hate it so much and it makes me so angry that I cry. I have never not taken an injection, I relent it at times but I just want it to work.
Have asked about the pump but apparantly I dont meet the criterea??
Thanks to anyone for listening to my rant, sorry to be so downbeat xxx
Diane