Sorry

I know that feeling Pete, it is frigging hard that it's everyday, no one gets a holiday from it.

Yes, I agree. The 'forever' bit of it is very hard to take. As a non-diabetic friend said to me 'at least you have something which you can work on to stay well' (have you seen the post about 'type 0's' ?). This is fine for most of the time, but sometimes diabetes does take a lot of self- control and when I am using energy on that I don't have much left for anything else. Still at least there's always people on this forum who understand that.

No worries, Pete, I think we have all felt like that probably more than once :-(
Another Type 1 once said to me that it can be the loneliest feeling , that was said long before this forum existed.
It's bloody hard work all round .

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Vent away Pete. Feel the same quite often, but I go to bed then wake up the next day, deep breath and start all over again.
If it's really getting to you maybe have a chat with your DSN or Dr, could be that you are having a bit of a burn out and they may be able to help some.
Keep up the good fight mate!

Its good to vent...to people that really understand. Sometimes you just want a day off from it all...

I must admit since being told to be less anal with my testing and analysing I don't give a thought now to wanting a day off (so to speak). I'm in 3rd year of pump, almost 4 years and honestly now my life is the best its ever been. Few years ago it was the worst.


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Take care Diddly and don't let things get you down.

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Ok melt down over have given my head a shake all is now well. Just can't moan to anyone in the know apart from on here! Cheers Pete.

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Don't worry Pete, we all go through those 'moments' It's like when you talk to diabetic specialists or eye specialist about OUR diabetes, etc ,its like we are talking gobberlygouch, as most don't have any idea of what some people actually go through. Take care now.

In my experience it's really healthy to vent now and again, and it helps if others actually know what the hell you are venting about from ! :-D
A few years back I had zero support and got sick of having to explain to others why I had to do what I do/how hypos or hypos affected me yadder yadder... The result was total burn out when I stopped keeping up appointments, tested rarely ( I had the same needle and lancet for weeks because I couldn't be bothered to renew a prescription :-0 ) and basically ate rubbish . I have clawed my way back from that black hole, following a shockingly high A1c and a " You're going to die" speech from Nurse Ratchett when I finally got hauled off to the hospital ;-)
I feel that would not have happened if I could have vented a few times, had a place to vent like here, and I wouldn't have ended up on the kitchen floor pounding my insulin vials with a hammer whilst wailing like a banshee :-D
Burn out Bad.
Venting Good .

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Wow that's some pretty serious burnout, Heathenlass!

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Burn out Bad.
Venting Good .

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+1 Agree on that one!

Spiker said:

Wow that's some pretty serious burnout, Heathenlass!

Yes, it was :-( There was some back story to it though, involving an abusive ex who used my diabetes to to illustrate what an unworthy life form I was . Emphasis on the "ex" part there :-D
Plus, I just couldn't get a grip on it, advice that didn't work to get control so I was hypo ing a lot that meant a hard time at work, and generally life was ...gaaaah !

I think it was being unable to freely communicate that lead to the burn out and meltdown, it just became so much hard work to try to explain how diabetes affected me, sometimes I felt like I was talking in a foreign language, so I gave up trying.

The good bit is, things can and do get better, and venting is part of that process

Signy

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