I went through that exact frustration, I nearly unintentionally killed myself from it, but I eventually learned and my guesstimates got more accurate. I understand your frustration, believe me, but over time you will learn from it and get better. You're better prepared than I was when diagnosed, I had access to better treatment when I was diagnosed than those who were diagnosed before I was, and so on.I would love to know how.
You correct something and you watch it climb and you assume on trust that it will eventually stop climbing. But sometimes it doesn't, because there are one billion things to take into account and you missed one of them. So you have to watch, and by the time you realise the correction wasn't enough, you are already too high. So you watch it go too high, thinking, do I take more now or do I wait? Do I wait a bit longer? How about now? Another ten minutes? Another five? One more minute?
You're gambling with your own health, at least three or four times a day, and each time it happens takes a couple of hours so you're basically ALWAYS in this situation, every waking second. If I ever get used to that and feel "quite alright" about it then I will really have gone crazy.
Hi KK123,
Yes, you are correct, generally the prescriptions given in private healthcare need to be paid for by yourself. However, each time in my life that I have needed to see a private diabetic consultant to sort out the correct insulin regime for me, they have always written to my GP to get the medication added to my normal NHS prescription & also written to my NHS consultant to advise what they are doing with me and why.
Like you we always have had a private healthcare policy, but obviously for me, with pre-diagnosed T1 diabetes, that is not covered by that policy. I think you are correct too, that generally on a healthcare policy you tend to see consultants that also work within the NHS, but quicker & in a nicer environment. However, when you 'pay as you go' there is more flexibility for you to choose who you see to support you & often the people who seem to be more advanced in their field no longer work in the NHS. I am doing the same thing at the moment with care for my pregnancy, I have selected a clinic that has the best results in what it does (used them before in my first pregnancy) and then 'pay as I go' for monitoring my pregnancy. This is because the level of cover for pregnancy seems fairly restricted on most healthcare policies in the UK.
I'm not frustrated, I'm frightened. I will not get it right all the time. I will screw up. It is impossible for anyone no matter how experienced to get it right 100 per cent of the time. So you go through this knowing it will get you in the end, it is literally the feeling from the dream where you're being chased by something and you know it is getting closer and there is nothing you can do about it. It is literally the sick awful feeling from that dream that everyone has but it's for real, and it's 24/7. I'm not sure how a person is supposed to deal with that let alone deal with it and have any sort of life.I went through that exact frustration, I nearly unintentionally killed myself from it, but I eventually learned and my guesstimates got more accurate. I understand your frustration, believe me, but over time you will learn from it and get better. You're better prepared than I was when diagnosed, I had access to better treatment when I was diagnosed than those who were diagnosed before I was, and so on.
Are you intentionally trying to annoy people? You're not unique, most of us have been in your shoes, stop acting all misunderstood. We all have bad days, even the people who takes exceptionally good care of themselves. Even if you didn't have diabetes, you would have bad days, just like everybody else does. You can either deal with it, like we have tried to help you with, or you can ignore it like you seem to have and just get worse.I'm not frustrated, I'm frightened. I will not get it right all the time. I will screw up. It is impossible for anyone no matter how experienced to get it right 100 per cent of the time. So you go through this knowing it will get you in the end, it is literally the feeling from the dream where you're being chased by something and you know it is getting closer and there is nothing you can do about it. It is literally the sick awful feeling from that dream that everyone has but it's for real, and it's 24/7. I'm not sure how a person is supposed to deal with that let alone deal with it and have any sort of life.
I'm not frustrated, I'm frightened. I will not get it right all the time. I will screw up. It is impossible for anyone no matter how experienced to get it right 100 per cent of the time. So you go through this knowing it will get you in the end, it is literally the feeling from the dream where you're being chased by something and you know it is getting closer and there is nothing you can do about it. It is literally the sick awful feeling from that dream that everyone has but it's for real, and it's 24/7. I'm not sure how a person is supposed to deal with that let alone deal with it and have any sort of life.
I'm not frustrated, I'm frightened. I will not get it right all the time. I will screw up. It is impossible for anyone no matter how experienced to get it right 100 per cent of the time. So you go through this knowing it will get you in the end, it is literally the feeling from the dream where you're being chased by something and you know it is getting closer and there is nothing you can do about it. It is literally the sick awful feeling from that dream that everyone has but it's for real, and it's 24/7. I'm not sure how a person is supposed to deal with that let alone deal with it and have any sort of life.
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