HpprKM
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Hi all,
Please excuse this 'moan' and if you are down highly recommend you do not read. I just need a space to vent
Since being diagnosed as T2 I have tried to stay positive and most times succeeded, consoling myself with the fact that I am aware and can take action. Today I have learned my hearing in one ear if unlikely to improve and may get worse (full of self pity right now - I know it is disgusting
- but no one around since return from the ENT and I need to vent!)
However, following diagnosis I feel that I am going downhill! I was diagnosed 2 years ago next month, a year ago I had a problem with my left ear after flying, and a subsequent sneeze when I got the most horrid sensation in my left ear - it was popping and crackling and felt as if someone had stuffed cotton wool into it, on top of this there was a high pitched whistle and a feeling of mufffedness in my hearing - to cut story short today I saw my ENT for third time and, having had a CT scan he confirmed 'nothing nasty is going on' i.e. tumour and, yes that is the good news absolutely, but my eustachian tube is blocked, primarily due to the small size of my nasal passages - but did confirm it was unlikely to get better, it may stay the same or may get worse (i.e. possible hearing loss). I am now to see a surgeon, but I am fully aware that no ear surgery is undertaken lightly - so not really too optimistic about that, firstly it may not be appropriate, it may not work and ear surgery is risky. On top of all this there is the tinnitus to deal with.
Also, along with this I now think back to my 'carpal tunnel' syndrome which started around 7 to 8 years ago, still get tingling from time to time - seems to me that there is probably a link to diabetes (wonder how long I have been diabetic)!
Loss of stamina (this is what led to me going to GP in first place and finding I was T2 diabetic), and becoming so tired so easily. Constantly monitoring my food and worrying about my sugar levels!
Then I realise there are far worse things going on in the world, and I know that in comparison with so many I am really quite lucky, and I loathe the fact that I feel this way :!: I just want to feel I am on top of this, in control of it, and I don't right now, I feel it is all out of my control and is I feel that I am going downhill. It probably is not that bad, and I need perspective - I hope this rant will help. Why I am writing this, it is not to depress you all, I know as well as anyone that the last thing a diabetic needs is someone going on about all the negativity and depression that diabetes can incur.
So, I do hope that those who are down do not read this, I just need a place to let this all out, but if any of you have ventured to read this (first of all please excuse this dreadful moan, and self pity - it really is not me - 90 per cent of the time :roll: ) but any moral support certainly welcomed right now!
Please excuse this 'moan' and if you are down highly recommend you do not read. I just need a space to vent


However, following diagnosis I feel that I am going downhill! I was diagnosed 2 years ago next month, a year ago I had a problem with my left ear after flying, and a subsequent sneeze when I got the most horrid sensation in my left ear - it was popping and crackling and felt as if someone had stuffed cotton wool into it, on top of this there was a high pitched whistle and a feeling of mufffedness in my hearing - to cut story short today I saw my ENT for third time and, having had a CT scan he confirmed 'nothing nasty is going on' i.e. tumour and, yes that is the good news absolutely, but my eustachian tube is blocked, primarily due to the small size of my nasal passages - but did confirm it was unlikely to get better, it may stay the same or may get worse (i.e. possible hearing loss). I am now to see a surgeon, but I am fully aware that no ear surgery is undertaken lightly - so not really too optimistic about that, firstly it may not be appropriate, it may not work and ear surgery is risky. On top of all this there is the tinnitus to deal with.
Also, along with this I now think back to my 'carpal tunnel' syndrome which started around 7 to 8 years ago, still get tingling from time to time - seems to me that there is probably a link to diabetes (wonder how long I have been diabetic)!
Loss of stamina (this is what led to me going to GP in first place and finding I was T2 diabetic), and becoming so tired so easily. Constantly monitoring my food and worrying about my sugar levels!
Then I realise there are far worse things going on in the world, and I know that in comparison with so many I am really quite lucky, and I loathe the fact that I feel this way :!: I just want to feel I am on top of this, in control of it, and I don't right now, I feel it is all out of my control and is I feel that I am going downhill. It probably is not that bad, and I need perspective - I hope this rant will help. Why I am writing this, it is not to depress you all, I know as well as anyone that the last thing a diabetic needs is someone going on about all the negativity and depression that diabetes can incur.
So, I do hope that those who are down do not read this, I just need a place to let this all out, but if any of you have ventured to read this (first of all please excuse this dreadful moan, and self pity - it really is not me - 90 per cent of the time :roll: ) but any moral support certainly welcomed right now!