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@type1gabs - I'm not T1, but did have an ED that really got a hold of me, in my late 20s, so I do completely understand the longevity and looping nature of the road to recovery and maintenance.
I know when I might sometimes find myself considering the less healthy options (for me), I used to try to set myself a very brief goal of "not today", or the like, then repeating as necessary. Making a forever goal isn't a practical coping mechanism, and other things change in our lives anyway.
If it's any consolation, whilst undergoing treatment, and discussing this very thing with the spychiatrist, he "reassured" me that as we move through life, our potential addictions/destructive behavours change, so it would pass, given time.
Given the passage of time, I'm pleased to say he was right about things passing, but I'm still waiting for the sex, drugs and rock 'n' roll.
It takes a strong person to move on from self-destructive behaviours, so take that to heart. One foot in front of the other and repeat.