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<blockquote data-quote="diva19871987" data-source="post: 260255" data-attributes="member: 41651"><p>I have been type 1 since I was 12 and am now 25. Through my teenage years I rebelled and I dont even want to think about the damage I have done to my self. I used to go days with no insulin, I remember not even getting testing strips because I hardly ever tested. My sugar would be over 30 for days, I drank alcohol excessively all through up to around the age of 22 not thinking about the effect of blood sugars and complications. I have smoked since I was 13, I have always gone through life thinking if everybody else can do it why cant I, the more Im told not to do something the more i'll do it. Then my life changed I got pregnant and became obsessed with blood sugars being low, often too low, paramedics were called loads and whilst I was happy they werent high they were regularly too low which I believed would make sure my twins where not effected in anyway. Fast forward 2 years I was diagnosed with background retinopathy, I never in a million years thought anything would happen to me when I was a teenager rebelling against this desiese but unfortunately it did. I have very bad depression which I am anti depressants for. I find it so very hard to even think of a reason to get up in a morning. I recently lost my job and with the extra hours of sitting around doing nothing often makes my depression worse as I spend more time thinking. The past few months I have been having pain in my feet which I am going to the hospital for next week and I am terrefied its going to be bad news and that I may lose my feet. All my friends and family have gone places in life and I suppose my biggest achievment in life was having two healthy children. I have always believed I cant to anything in life with type 1 and I suppose it has restricted my life. I sometimes read forums on this site and have seen many people do not let diabetes affect there lives and live life to the full, I desperately want to lead a happy and fulfilled life for my partner and children but at the moment I cant see this ever happening for me. The more I try the harder it seems to be at the moment and sometimes I feel whats the point and can hide myself away from the world for days. I worry every waking minute about complications and am forever beating myself up about not looking after it in the past and I obviously know I have only myself to blame If I did go blind or had any other serious complication. I would like to hear other diabetics stories of how they have coped since diagnosis? How does it affect there life and has it resricted them in anyway, I know people will think, "pull yourself together", but would like to know other peoples experiences, especially if they go the desese throught there teenage years. What were HBA1C as a child? Thank you</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="diva19871987, post: 260255, member: 41651"] I have been type 1 since I was 12 and am now 25. Through my teenage years I rebelled and I dont even want to think about the damage I have done to my self. I used to go days with no insulin, I remember not even getting testing strips because I hardly ever tested. My sugar would be over 30 for days, I drank alcohol excessively all through up to around the age of 22 not thinking about the effect of blood sugars and complications. I have smoked since I was 13, I have always gone through life thinking if everybody else can do it why cant I, the more Im told not to do something the more i'll do it. Then my life changed I got pregnant and became obsessed with blood sugars being low, often too low, paramedics were called loads and whilst I was happy they werent high they were regularly too low which I believed would make sure my twins where not effected in anyway. Fast forward 2 years I was diagnosed with background retinopathy, I never in a million years thought anything would happen to me when I was a teenager rebelling against this desiese but unfortunately it did. I have very bad depression which I am anti depressants for. I find it so very hard to even think of a reason to get up in a morning. I recently lost my job and with the extra hours of sitting around doing nothing often makes my depression worse as I spend more time thinking. The past few months I have been having pain in my feet which I am going to the hospital for next week and I am terrefied its going to be bad news and that I may lose my feet. All my friends and family have gone places in life and I suppose my biggest achievment in life was having two healthy children. I have always believed I cant to anything in life with type 1 and I suppose it has restricted my life. I sometimes read forums on this site and have seen many people do not let diabetes affect there lives and live life to the full, I desperately want to lead a happy and fulfilled life for my partner and children but at the moment I cant see this ever happening for me. The more I try the harder it seems to be at the moment and sometimes I feel whats the point and can hide myself away from the world for days. I worry every waking minute about complications and am forever beating myself up about not looking after it in the past and I obviously know I have only myself to blame If I did go blind or had any other serious complication. I would like to hear other diabetics stories of how they have coped since diagnosis? How does it affect there life and has it resricted them in anyway, I know people will think, "pull yourself together", but would like to know other peoples experiences, especially if they go the desese throught there teenage years. What were HBA1C as a child? Thank you [/QUOTE]
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