Oh my goodness!
I've just read this and now a lot of things are making sense! I was diagnosed type 2, 2.5 years ago they quickly changed it to 1.5 (mody) but then I went to see my doctor a week or so ago, and with my weightloss he is sending me to a diabetic clinic because he said that he thought my antibodies may be attacking my insulin... I'd felt bad because I thought I hadn't been trying hard enough - my sugar levels are ALWAYS 10+, but he was very kind and said that this was probably not the case and its these antibody thingies that's causing it... But I didn't really understand... Now I've read a couple of links and things are a lot clearer, thank you!
I must say though, and I know this sounds selfish as this has only been going on for a couple of years... I am soooooooooooooooo fed up of not being able to eat what I want.. I am sooooooo jealous of my diabetic friends who say that they can eat what they want and who don't understand why I can't... I am sick and tired of having to explain to people why I am 'skinny' and why I still have to buy all the diet looking products... To tell you the truth, it is getting me down... And I am finding it increasingly difficult to keep my willpower... I had given up smoking for 4 months, but I've started again.. I know that its bad, but I am so stressed with it all... I just want to be like everybody else!!!... My boyfriend completely does not understand and constantly makes food with cream in it and buys me wine!!!! Which is delicious, but bad for me and I feel bad if i say I can't have it... Nor does he want to listen what diabetes is all about and thinks I'm just trying to get 'attention' when I say I can't eat something or if I feel ill... Like I say, I don't enjoy being different...
I sound like a teenager having a tantrum...! But in fact I'm 37!!!
Anyway... I've gone off on a tangent!... The good thing and the point of this is that I'm going to see this specialist... I hope from this I'll be able to start stabilising things a bit... and become more 'normal' just like my bloke wants me to be.. And also, most importantly, still be around to see my kids have kids in the future!
Thanks for making me see things clearer!
JB