Hi everyone,due to my mum being ill ive not been on here for a while so I thought I'd let you all know how I am. I'm still eating better but mot enough but at least I'm not going backwards!! My eating disorder is still showing its ugly head but I ignore it as much as I can.I recently went back to see my dietician (who is very fierce!!) I had to take with me my food diary which ive been doing over the last month.i had to write down everything I ate and record my blood glucosr result along with how I was feeling that day.unfortunately when I saw everything written down it didnt look as though I'd eaten very much so I stupidly filled in that I'd eaten meals that I'd not eaten and I also adjusted my blood readings.when I got to my appointment and began talking to the dietician (who at this time told me I was doing really well) I broke down and admitted I'd written false results. Darren was with me and said he was proud of me for telling the truth.my dietician was fine anout it and has now referred me for an urgent appointment to see a doctor who deals with people who have an eating disorder along with diabetes.Unfortunately I probably wont be able to go as I'm going intp hosptal for my second hip replacement on 28th (I only got the phonecall yesterday telling me the date)so unless the appointment is for next week I'll have to delay it for a while.please dong think bad of me for lying about my food diary results, I just wanted to be 'normal' for a while.at least I admitted it eventually and now can move forward.thankyou for reading this.xxx