Thanks for your support Charles I really appreciate it!! I'll let you no how I get on after the scan etc x
No problem at all, I know full well how you are feeling. Just remember that as a species, we find it easy just to deal with things in black and white. 'I will be brilliant, or I will be blind,' is the standard way our minds tend to work (or is that just me?). In reality, it's not as clear cut as this. If you need treatment, it will seem like an insurmountable challenge to come out the other side in once piece. Just remember, you will have felt this way before. Each time something in your life has seemed impossible, the fact that you are still here proves that you overcame it. This will be no different. Honestly, we may experience some problems in the future. Perhaps our eyesight will get worse. My own view is that if this happens, I will find a way to coexist with the situation. In the meantime, I will keep my blood sugars as tightly controlled as I can, thus taking the measures I can to keep as healthy as I can, for as many multiple decades as I can.
You will get through this. As I said, needing some treatment does not mean you are sliding irreversibly down the cliff. It's not nice. Of course it isn't. But it is one of a multitude of options that our grandparents did not have. If we have to have diabetes, it's a good time to be around with it. Best wishes, and try to keep an open mind until the scan.