Hi
@TURBO911_ - sorry you're having such a hard time of things.
Any life-changing diagnosis can be difficult to accept, particularly one with such prevalent bad press and high publicised poor outcomes. It's easy to feel like you've lost something, and many people go through a grieving process for the life and outcomes they feel they've lost. It sounds to me a little bit like you're stuck in that process, and that your doctors (in offering you counselling) are trying to help you out of it.
You haven't mentioned anything you might be doing to get proactive with your T1. Compared to many other life-changing conditions, diabetes is a condition that can (to a greater or lesser extent) be self-managed. Are you testing, keeping a food diary or trying to control your illness with diet? You're not a helpless passenger on a diabetes-driven train here and there are lots of things you can try to regain your sense of control.
I know it seems bleak and that the needles and appointments and fuss are all something of a ball-ache (language, apologies), but you're not at the end of your journey yet, and between this forum and community and your doctors there is lots of positive support and help available for you. You just have to be ready to engage with it.
Take the offer of a "shrink". It sounds like it would be useful for you to have someone to talk to about this, your feelings, you sense of your illness being in control of you and not the other way around.
Good luck - and come back. You're not alone.
Sock x