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Little help?

amcdee

amcdee

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Location
Derby
Type of diabetes
Type 1
Treatment type
Insulin
HI Folks,

Sorry to bring this here, but could I could do with a little support. I am at my whit’s end – mainly with myself. For the last year or so, possibly longer, I have not been looking after myself, not testing, skipping insulin and certainly not counting carbs.

It seems that at the first bit of stress or trauma in my left control is the first thing to go. It is just this time it seems to have gone for good. Having lost a wonderfully supportive diabetic team and GP, I’ve lost all control. My GP’s surgery is less than useless and frankly, I would not wish them to treat my worst enemy. The specialist team I am under are brilliant and dispensing ‘tea and sympathy’ between furtive glances at the clock, from the moment you walk in. Sorry could be just I; that does not make me feel very important to them or really that I have their attention.

In the last week, I have had an outbreak of thrush. Yes, it is down to not looking after myself, to running high. However, can I get to see my GP, can I even speak to practice nurse – NO. Yes, I know that I can get Canestenfrom the chemist (after a fight, why don’t chemist understand men get thrush too), but the over the counter treatments I’ve found in the past to be completely ineffective.

I’m ashamed to say that I was slightly disappointed that I woke up this morning. Sorry but I am tired of fighting and losing. Rant over…..

Thanks for reading.

Alan
 
G'day alan, when you are feeling down nothing seems right, no wonder your diabetes is taking the back seat, I assume the thrush is in the groin? On advice, I cleared the last batch up with a zinc based antifungal for nappy rash, and a bit of steroid cream...the canesten seemed like it was feeding it and getting no where.

you may need counselling and/or meds for the depression, have you told your team how you feel?

baby steps mate, do a blood test
do you have fresh insulin in the fridge?
 
Thanks for the message Jack. Yes, its in the groin. I'll give your suggestion a try, I really do appreciate that tip.

I do have insulin to hand. In fact I've just tested - 17.4 mmol, did i take insulin, no, but a chocolate biscuit went down a treat. Just could bring myself to inject. Now raked with guilt! Sorry mate, just seem to be on a path of self destruction, which i can't get off.
 
Hello Alan. Sorryto hear you are so down. Ring the Doctors tomorrow and say you need to see a Doctor as soon as possible. If the Receptionist cross examines you about why say it is your diabetes. I hope you manage to get some help for the thrush but please explain how you are feeling. I hope Sunday isnt too long a day for you. Keep posting :)
 
please see your gp tomorrow
sorry you are suffering
 
amcdee said:
Thanks for the message Jack. Yes, its in the groin. I'll give your suggestion a try, I really do appreciate that tip.

I do have insulin to hand. In fact I've just tested - 17.4 mmol, did i take insulin, no, but a chocolate biscuit went down a treat. Just could bring myself to inject. Now raked with guilt! Sorry mate, just seem to be on a path of self destruction, which i can't get off.
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congrats, you tested and read the result, baby steps....there is no win or lose.. see how you feel a bit later, you might want to set up a basal injection for tonight or just do a ketone test, for old times sake :)
 
Hey Alan, don't give up, just take one day at a time. I was feeling like you earlier this year, and someone on here posted that tomorrow is always a new day. It doesn't matter what you did yesterday, or last month, year whatever. All that matters is what you do tomorrow. A bit of a corny line but every day is a good day when you wake up to see it. I know it's tough, but to be alive is to be blessed, life is precious and all that! And fighting and losing is better than giving up. Things will get better, you just need to make some changes and get out of that rut. If your doctor won't help, take matters into your own hands, do what you can- eat better, exercise, see what different things can work for you.
Good luck x
 
Hey Alan, just to let you know that you are not alone. I totally get what you are saying. I a type 1 and feel so out of control with it, even when I am trying to control it levels are all over the place, so I feel why bother? If my blood is going to be high eating well, then why not just eat a chocolate and be done? And as for injecting, well, I will do it in a minute, my one is out of reach. Don't want to do it in my stomach as it usually stings , can't be assed to take trousers down to inject in my thigh. I also hate how it controls me. Not me controlling it. I hate not being able to eat what I want, yet feeling like rubbish all the time. Having sore fingers from testing. Bg going up even if I haven't eaten anything for a few hours. External factors affecting bg, so don't even have control that way. Feeling rubbish, I could sleep for a week right now. I'm just saying all this to let you know that you are not on your own with this. If you would like to join up with me to try and regain control, maybe we could encourage each other, through the good and the bad?
 
manicarrie said:
Hey Alan, just to let you know that you are not alone. I totally get what you are saying. I a type 1 and feel so out of control with it, even when I am trying to control it levels are all over the place, so I feel why bother? If my blood is going to be high eating well, then why not just eat a chocolate and be done? And as for injecting, well, I will do it in a minute, my one is out of reach. Don't want to do it in my stomach as it usually stings , can't be assed to take trousers down to inject in my thigh. I also hate how it controls me. Not me controlling it. I hate not being able to eat what I want, yet feeling like rubbish all the time. Having sore fingers from testing. Bg going up even if I haven't eaten anything for a few hours. External factors affecting bg, so don't even have control that way. Feeling rubbish, I could sleep for a week right now. I'm just saying all this to let you know that you are not on your own with this. If you would like to join up with me to try and regain control, maybe we could encourage each other, through the good and the bad?
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Here, here, battling together is better than fighting alone x
 
Tweetypie said:
Here, here, battling together is better than fighting alone x
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Thanks, in a way reading this thread helped me realize that I am not the only one, so although I get Alan's frustrations completely, and wish he didn't feel this way, it has also given me a bit of motivation that if other people are feeling this way then there must be help x
 
It is sure good to know you are not along, that people understand and that your heard.

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manicarrie said:
Thanks, in a way reading this thread helped me realize that I am not the only one, so although I get Alan's frustrations completely, and wish he didn't feel this way, it has also given me a bit of motivation that if other people are feeling this way then there must be help x
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Absolutely, it's terrifying to feel alone but no-one has to. x
Been feeling a bit low myself today as control has lapsed a bit, feeling sad :(. Sometimes knowing you're not alone speaks volumes and even feeling you've cheered someone else up can help you feel better yourself ;)
 
amcdee said:
It is sure good to know you are not along, that people understand and that your heard.

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BTW, are they your dogs in the picture? Two good reasons to keep going, I'd say, what a pair of cuties!
 
They sure are. Both rescues. .. that pic was taken on a dogs sponsored walk to raise funds the guide dogs for the blind.

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aww, sweet!
 
Just a quick update. Firstly thanks for the encouragement. I'm doing a little better and test. Getting back on track slowly.

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