Type2Guy
Well-Known Member
I was officially diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes last month with an A1C of 8.6. So I've spent the past few weeks trying to make as many drastic changes to my diet and taken on a more rigorous exercise regime in an attempt to get this under far better control. I've been living an emotional trauma in slow motion since being jolted from the sublime comfort of my delightfully lazy, endless carbohydrate infused previous routine, because the notion of lifelong commitment to this perpetual monitoring and management of blood glucose and the restrictive diet required to achieve the desired effect just feels so very difficult. Despite understanding the genetic component of diabetes, I still have a lot of shame to process at feeling responsible for crossing this threshold into it because I avoided warning signs for such a long time and too often made a lot of poor choices.
The diagnosis did quickly force me to overcome one of my biggest fears, which was using a glucose meter. It just doesn't hurt at all to lance oneself given the super fine gauge of the lancet, but I am still mystified by the idea of having to intentionally force blood from my finger tip, even such a minuscule amount that it still takes me ten minutes of creating just the right ambiance with blaring sounds of the rain forest relaxation mp3s to offset the intense pressure I find in pushing that trigger. I am a world class neurotic, but at least humor provides a silver lining in which to better cope.
Although I am in the US, it helps me to get a broader perspective on how others manage their diabetes in addition to any supportive feedback. I like the idea of being part of a global community. It feels a lot less lonely. Thank you for reading this. Matt
The diagnosis did quickly force me to overcome one of my biggest fears, which was using a glucose meter. It just doesn't hurt at all to lance oneself given the super fine gauge of the lancet, but I am still mystified by the idea of having to intentionally force blood from my finger tip, even such a minuscule amount that it still takes me ten minutes of creating just the right ambiance with blaring sounds of the rain forest relaxation mp3s to offset the intense pressure I find in pushing that trigger. I am a world class neurotic, but at least humor provides a silver lining in which to better cope.
Although I am in the US, it helps me to get a broader perspective on how others manage their diabetes in addition to any supportive feedback. I like the idea of being part of a global community. It feels a lot less lonely. Thank you for reading this. Matt