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- Type of diabetes
- Treatment type
- Tablets (oral)
Can someone give me a big kick.
At first when I was diagnosed - well for a month - i watched my diet and tested. Doctor first put me on Metaforim tables but they gave me nasty headaches and i was sick constantly the two weeks I tried first the ordinary one then same with slow release. Felt doctor didn't want me to to take anything else and kept saying if you keep trying they will eventually be ok, snag is I have other heath problems that give me pain including chronic headaches plus also being sick is sometimes just normal for me so anything that adds to these problems is just no help, I really felt so ill that i told her I would rather just let the diabetes kill me. Sounds dramatic but I have chronic body pain and being sick just makes the pain worse and its bad enough being caused by health problems but taken meds that make it worse was like being punished.
So she grudgingly gave me Januvia and although they don't seem to affect so far my glucose levels neither do they cause me any side effects at all.
The problems hit about 2 months in I just suddenly had a mental shift and found myself eating cakes and chocolates which daft as it sounds i never normally do and not bothering with any care over diet - needless to say levels have gone higher. I am craving these like mad and cannot seem to get myself to care. I have weird sensations in hands and feet and even doctor said it sound like some nerve damage plus I have some cuts that are taking a very long time to heal . So with these physical symptoms there in front of me why or why can I not behave.
Never been like this before, always been good over any health problems and done what I have to, to be cured or improve but mentally I just cannot do it - I know if i carry on I am going to be be sans parts of my body, affect the rest of it but at moment I just do not care.
I have been through a rather rough few years but that is over now and things have settled into their new order so it cannot be stress, its as if I 'believe' if I don;t act as if I have it, it will vanish yet I know its not true.
Has anyone else gone through this denial phase and if so how did you end up without doing serious damage to your body?
Please help and give me the kick I need.
Thanks
At first when I was diagnosed - well for a month - i watched my diet and tested. Doctor first put me on Metaforim tables but they gave me nasty headaches and i was sick constantly the two weeks I tried first the ordinary one then same with slow release. Felt doctor didn't want me to to take anything else and kept saying if you keep trying they will eventually be ok, snag is I have other heath problems that give me pain including chronic headaches plus also being sick is sometimes just normal for me so anything that adds to these problems is just no help, I really felt so ill that i told her I would rather just let the diabetes kill me. Sounds dramatic but I have chronic body pain and being sick just makes the pain worse and its bad enough being caused by health problems but taken meds that make it worse was like being punished.
So she grudgingly gave me Januvia and although they don't seem to affect so far my glucose levels neither do they cause me any side effects at all.
The problems hit about 2 months in I just suddenly had a mental shift and found myself eating cakes and chocolates which daft as it sounds i never normally do and not bothering with any care over diet - needless to say levels have gone higher. I am craving these like mad and cannot seem to get myself to care. I have weird sensations in hands and feet and even doctor said it sound like some nerve damage plus I have some cuts that are taking a very long time to heal . So with these physical symptoms there in front of me why or why can I not behave.
Never been like this before, always been good over any health problems and done what I have to, to be cured or improve but mentally I just cannot do it - I know if i carry on I am going to be be sans parts of my body, affect the rest of it but at moment I just do not care.
I have been through a rather rough few years but that is over now and things have settled into their new order so it cannot be stress, its as if I 'believe' if I don;t act as if I have it, it will vanish yet I know its not true.
Has anyone else gone through this denial phase and if so how did you end up without doing serious damage to your body?
Please help and give me the kick I need.
Thanks