heya,
I've been reading this site for ages and finally managed to gear into signing up and saying hello, at 2am of all times.
Basically, I'm not great with looking after myself. I'm probably a speck below average. I was diagnosed type 1 during easter in 2006 and in fact it made me incredibley ill and I lost a lot of weight, the usual with diagnosis. In the first 6 months I was controlling it, on humalin I twice a day and eating regulated balanced meals checking my levels as I was advised.
Now, here it gets tricky. I suddenly stopped checking my levels, I can't explain why exactly but to this day I still cannot force myself to regulate it - I want to but I can't seem to knock myself to doing it :cry: I know its importance, I only regulate when I have serious highs or lows and that lasts for a day. When this started, I kept going to the specialist and developed a horrific anxiety, my last visit to this particular practice I just walked in and burst into tears from just anxiety and shame over my levels and not checking them.
I was soon sorted with a ultratouch comfort finger pricker, it does make it less painful but not completely. I think I stopped because of the discomfort just growing....after being diagnosed and admitted to hospital, I spent 2 weeks with the nastiest nurse on night shifts. Their unilets were so painful and she wouldn't wake me up to take my readings, I'd wake up and see her there, and just went all over the fingers in the sore places, open cuts you name it. When I got home I started waking up thinking she was there.
I'm 20 now, on apidra, lantus and metformin I have loads of meters and still I manage to avoid them. Please tell me I'm not the only one that's this silly? I'm trying to change my life around and this is on the list, my doctor said to try just once a day and even still thats optimistic, I can't avoid them forever
Thanks
Sarah xXx
I've been reading this site for ages and finally managed to gear into signing up and saying hello, at 2am of all times.
Basically, I'm not great with looking after myself. I'm probably a speck below average. I was diagnosed type 1 during easter in 2006 and in fact it made me incredibley ill and I lost a lot of weight, the usual with diagnosis. In the first 6 months I was controlling it, on humalin I twice a day and eating regulated balanced meals checking my levels as I was advised.
Now, here it gets tricky. I suddenly stopped checking my levels, I can't explain why exactly but to this day I still cannot force myself to regulate it - I want to but I can't seem to knock myself to doing it :cry: I know its importance, I only regulate when I have serious highs or lows and that lasts for a day. When this started, I kept going to the specialist and developed a horrific anxiety, my last visit to this particular practice I just walked in and burst into tears from just anxiety and shame over my levels and not checking them.
I was soon sorted with a ultratouch comfort finger pricker, it does make it less painful but not completely. I think I stopped because of the discomfort just growing....after being diagnosed and admitted to hospital, I spent 2 weeks with the nastiest nurse on night shifts. Their unilets were so painful and she wouldn't wake me up to take my readings, I'd wake up and see her there, and just went all over the fingers in the sore places, open cuts you name it. When I got home I started waking up thinking she was there.
I'm 20 now, on apidra, lantus and metformin I have loads of meters and still I manage to avoid them. Please tell me I'm not the only one that's this silly? I'm trying to change my life around and this is on the list, my doctor said to try just once a day and even still thats optimistic, I can't avoid them forever
Thanks
Sarah xXx
