- Messages
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- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Treatment type
- Insulin
I don’t have many people I can talk to and although my doctors and diabetic nurse do help, I feel like I’m at a loss.
So, I have had type 1 diabetes for around 4 years now, found out when I was 18 and it was pretty much out of the blue. There was no reason for this, no one in my family are T1, the reason I was told was that I had either gone through a really stressful time or traumatic experience. A few months after I found out I was rushed into hospital with DKA with only hours left before I went into a coma. Although this was pretty scary for me and my family, I still struggled to cope afterwards. Fast forward to last year I finally went on the DAFNE course which helped A LOT. But a few months afterwards, I kind of spiralled again.
See I have this mental attitude of, I don’t want diabetes, I never asked for this, I don’t know how I got it so why me????? I guess I have struggled with coming to terms with it since I found I have it 4 years ago but only really admitted it this year.
I’m constantly feeling lost, I’ve been prescribed anti depressants which were fine for a couple of weeks but now I’ve started to forget to take those. I’ve lost the routine of not checking my bloods regularly and just pretty much guessing from the carbs I’ve eaten of how much insulin I need to take.
There are other factors in my life that have led to depression which I’m working on, but the diabetes, well I feel like that’s taken a hold on my life and I’m never going to get it back.
The hardest thing is, I know what I need to do, I have all the tools to help me. But I just really can’t accept this life.
So, I have had type 1 diabetes for around 4 years now, found out when I was 18 and it was pretty much out of the blue. There was no reason for this, no one in my family are T1, the reason I was told was that I had either gone through a really stressful time or traumatic experience. A few months after I found out I was rushed into hospital with DKA with only hours left before I went into a coma. Although this was pretty scary for me and my family, I still struggled to cope afterwards. Fast forward to last year I finally went on the DAFNE course which helped A LOT. But a few months afterwards, I kind of spiralled again.
See I have this mental attitude of, I don’t want diabetes, I never asked for this, I don’t know how I got it so why me????? I guess I have struggled with coming to terms with it since I found I have it 4 years ago but only really admitted it this year.
I’m constantly feeling lost, I’ve been prescribed anti depressants which were fine for a couple of weeks but now I’ve started to forget to take those. I’ve lost the routine of not checking my bloods regularly and just pretty much guessing from the carbs I’ve eaten of how much insulin I need to take.
There are other factors in my life that have led to depression which I’m working on, but the diabetes, well I feel like that’s taken a hold on my life and I’m never going to get it back.
The hardest thing is, I know what I need to do, I have all the tools to help me. But I just really can’t accept this life.