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How many of those with complications blame themselves and if so how do you deal with the guilt?
I will feel guilty until the day I die as I neglected my health as a teen and young adult and now it is catching up with me. I look back at all the times I was out of control/ate the wrong food/did not take my medication and can't believe I did that to myself, but I did have eating disorders /diabulimia sort of thing and although I knew the risks logically somehow I couldn't or wouldn't change my behaviour.
I'm sure I'm not the only diabetic to go through this. It's the cruellest disease (well one of them ) as by the time you realise you have done the damage it may be too late. Now I don't know if I can have another baby due to my retinopathy, no one is saying I definitely can't but I don't know if I want to risk it and go blind.
Anyway I feel pretty bad that I didn't take more care when younger. It's making me depressed at what should be a happy time in my life, but it's just this constant dark cloud on the horizon. Do you ever get over the guilt?
I will feel guilty until the day I die as I neglected my health as a teen and young adult and now it is catching up with me. I look back at all the times I was out of control/ate the wrong food/did not take my medication and can't believe I did that to myself, but I did have eating disorders /diabulimia sort of thing and although I knew the risks logically somehow I couldn't or wouldn't change my behaviour.
I'm sure I'm not the only diabetic to go through this. It's the cruellest disease (well one of them ) as by the time you realise you have done the damage it may be too late. Now I don't know if I can have another baby due to my retinopathy, no one is saying I definitely can't but I don't know if I want to risk it and go blind.
Anyway I feel pretty bad that I didn't take more care when younger. It's making me depressed at what should be a happy time in my life, but it's just this constant dark cloud on the horizon. Do you ever get over the guilt?