Im not completely sure that I'm posting in the right place but here goes... I had decided after suffering from a back complaint for 3 months, that as soon as I was back on my feet I would get some control over my eating habits and weight issues. My 39th birthday was to be my final fling and I would begin my 40's in better mental and physical shape! 2 weeks after my birthday and making great inroads towards cutting out rubbish from my diet, I received my diagnosis of diabetes. Which frankly sucked. I hit the ground running, having already cut the majority of carbs from my diet, ridding myself of even low GI foods that I had originally allowed to stay and managed to go from 21.2 stone to 16 stone 10 in 4 months or so. I also reduced my hba1c from 50 to 37.
I was over the moon and I thought these 2 things would be enough to inspire me onwards and upwards. Then I hit a plateau. My weight didn't move for a week and even though logically I knew this was quite normal, the longer it went on, the more I lost focus and emotionally unravelled.
I have always had a very ugly, very complicated relationship with foods, due to childhood issues of which I won't go into, but were pretty horrendous. I am an emotional eater and I binge during times of high stress and/or high emotion. I punish myself with food when I feel worthless and I reward myself when happy and content. A contradiction. Any heightened emotion makes me reach for the food. So, although I have replaced positive emotions with watching the scale number fall and with exercise and generally feeling better, I just can't get a handle on negative emotional responses and using food to make me feel better. So when the scale stopped moving, you can imagine what happened. Last night, I fell asleep with the worst migraine ever because my body is just not used to the rubbish I have consumed in the last 5 days. I've looked for local meeting groups for eating disorders/issues, but I can't find anything close enough that I can fit my needs distance or time wise.
Can anyone relate to my situation? Has anyone managed to overcome a similar response/relationship to food and can offer up some much needed insight as to how I can battle through this? I'm devastated that I've allowed this to happen when I was doing so well and feeling so much healthier.
I was over the moon and I thought these 2 things would be enough to inspire me onwards and upwards. Then I hit a plateau. My weight didn't move for a week and even though logically I knew this was quite normal, the longer it went on, the more I lost focus and emotionally unravelled.
I have always had a very ugly, very complicated relationship with foods, due to childhood issues of which I won't go into, but were pretty horrendous. I am an emotional eater and I binge during times of high stress and/or high emotion. I punish myself with food when I feel worthless and I reward myself when happy and content. A contradiction. Any heightened emotion makes me reach for the food. So, although I have replaced positive emotions with watching the scale number fall and with exercise and generally feeling better, I just can't get a handle on negative emotional responses and using food to make me feel better. So when the scale stopped moving, you can imagine what happened. Last night, I fell asleep with the worst migraine ever because my body is just not used to the rubbish I have consumed in the last 5 days. I've looked for local meeting groups for eating disorders/issues, but I can't find anything close enough that I can fit my needs distance or time wise.
Can anyone relate to my situation? Has anyone managed to overcome a similar response/relationship to food and can offer up some much needed insight as to how I can battle through this? I'm devastated that I've allowed this to happen when I was doing so well and feeling so much healthier.