I was diagnosed christmas day 2005, coming upto my 10 year mark, im now 22, it doesent feel right me saying these words because in a way its like im playing with my life, i had a heart attack september 2014... Atleast 13 DKA's and an actual warning from a specialist that my life will end in 3 years if i cant learn to control my diabetes, 10 years n still uncontrolled, joke right ? But dont get me wrong its all my own doing, being lazy, well no thats wrong im far from lazy, more dismissal and the reason that ive always told myself is that my brain or my body has never accepted the fact i have this condition for the rest of my life.. My dismissal i guess comes from me, idont know, not wanting to accept the condition ? Its too the extent that i dont fear anythink thats coming my way anymore.. Ive neva been able to speak these words to a human being because my personality and my humour, well i guess people wouldnt expect me to say it so ive bottled it up, i suppose im jus looking for reassurance, ive neva knew who to ask about these things, iknow theres betes clinics and what not but i cant open to them, they see hundreds of people a day with the same condition so why would i be singled out n chose to be supported, i have over thought all of this for the last 4 years struggling to word it, thanks for reading