Aaw, no, you sound so down! And, look, everyone has food splurge days from time to time - none of us are approaching sainthood. Give yourself a break, eh?
Look at it this way, it's taken a long, long time for your body to develop T2D, and you've only been diagnosed for a couple of months. You're right at the start of learning about food, blood sugar, what affects it, your daily "cycle" and all kinds of other stuff. Don't worry too much about each specific reading - try to see each particular reading as a piece in a huge jigsaw, whose picture you can't even fully see yet.
You're doing great - moving at your own pace, testing, eating mindfully and asking questions. Keeping a food diary might help you to track your eating patterns over time (my food diary is the only way I know that my last packet of crisps was 23rd June!).
You've got this, promise.