Hi my name's Ash and I'm 21, I've had type 1 diabetes since I was 22 months so I've never really known anything different. In my earlier years my control (my mother's really) was pretty good. However, since starting to manage it myself even with my mum's help I just can't seem to make heads or tails of the constant blood checks, the doing insulin for this drink and that bit of food (I carb count btw) now I know I could do the simple thing of going carb free or incredibly low carb but I don't want to live my life not being able to eat and drink what my friends and family do. And it's not so much a fear of being different as I've accepted that I am and that, that small difference doesn't mean I can't be like my peers. But for some reason whenever I go to clinic or speak to my GP I'm always confident and willing to make the necessary changes to my lifestyle to sort myself out. However, after a couple weeks I'll call back into my old ways of not checking my blood sugars and not doing insulin when I need too. I don't know why to this day, I really wish I could just do it. If only life was that simple. If anyone has been through a similar struggle and come out the other side or anyone has some advice in general I would love to hear it. Thank you so much in advance!