Hi
@Amylou122xx,
Hugs, I can really empathize. I agree with you the first thing to do is to get a meter. The most important issue to consider is the price of the test strips, as these might be your ongoing costs.
@Rachox has a lot of good information on reasonably priced meters. If your concerns turn out to be warranted, is there a way you can give your doctor a call? They might be able to suggest a way forward.
It is really important to know that you didn't do this to yourself. For the most part, we Type 2s are genetically predisposed to diabetes (as also evidenced by your PCOS). This predisposition combined with a high-carb diet, which suggested by nutritional bodies worldwide, does not infrequently lead to T2 diabetes. So, you did nothing wrong.
No matter what the outcome of testing will be -- there is a lot you can do to get back to normal blood sugars. Many of us Type2s have switched to a low-carb or even ketogenic way of eating. This means, we have cut out many of the carbohydrates in our meals and have seen blood sugars return to normal. There are other Type 2s, who have embarked on a very low-calorie diet (about 800 calories a day or less) and have also seen good results. So, there's a lot of hope and a lot we can do, we don't have to just passively accept diagnosis.
Personally, I was diagnosed with very, very high blood sugar levels five years ago, switched to a ketogenic diet (about 20g of carbs per day) and have had normal blood sugar levels ever since.
Before I forget: Welcome to the forum, have a look around (may I especially suggest the "Success Stories" and the "What have you eaten today?" threads in the Low-Carb Diet Forum). Fire away if you have any question. There are bunches of really friendly, knowledgeable and helpful members on this forum, who will be happy to help.