Probably not helped by me taking my GPs advice to 'stop worrying and be a normal student' by indulging in some 4 cheese pizza last night. I couldn't sleep at 2:30 am and it was 11.5, then I woke up to that.
I emailed all this to my GP today and explained to him why I think I'm diabetic even though one of the two fasting tests I had was just under 7. He's fixated on that diagnostic criteria (which he looked up online the day I came to review results) but seems to miss the ANY RANDOM READING OVER 11mmol bit. It used to be every so often, and now it's almost daily. I am terrified it will ruin our relationship though. He will feel offended that I think I know more about diabetes than he does. The only reason he even ordered tests when no other GP would is because he likes me personally. He thinks I'm cool and smart. I don't want to offend him and get cut off from a chance of a referral, but even suggesting an endocrinologist might be 'better' than him would hurt.
Are they deliberately trying to make people who catch diabetes early think they are crazy? Do the pharmaceutical companies get a kick out of it? I mean it's ******* obvious I can't control my blood sugar, why do I have to wait around?
All I need is a GAD test to look for T1, if not it's likely T2 and if they really don't think it is at all possible for someone with their ribs clearly showing to be T2 then they an bloody well pay out for a MODY test too.
When I joined this site I was hoping I wouldn't see any trends and my occasional high blood sugar would remain occasional. I would be assured by comparison with Real diabetics that actually my levels were fine and I'd eventually leave reassured that I was just being silly. I did not expect this deterioration, especially after the lows experienced during the heat wave. To see upper teens has shocked me to my core. I was hoping this was all in my head.
Sorry for raving and being so MEMEMEMEME but I genuinely don't know what to do anymore. As I become increasingly panicked the GP just seems more *amused* and giggling with Intrigue at this case of a skinny, fit young thing complaining of magically occurring hyperglycaemia.
I am not on any steroids. I even stopped taking topical steroids for my psoriasis. Whether or not I take antihistamines for chronic urticaria doesnt seem to make a difference. I think it could 'just be stress' then I relax on a weekend in the countryside then BANG 15+ out of nowhere.
What the hell is up with this? He says there is no way it is type 1, MODY doesn't usually present with such high readings. Do I look like a type 2 diabetic? Could I lose more weight? This is me looking *heavy* after recovery on my birthday
God **** I don't know how much it's going to help kicking up a fuss but I'm so frustrated. I know it's vain that there are far worse things to worry about like losing limbs (like my uncle) but I don't wan to die a fat diabetic. Even when I was anorexic I STRUGGLED to get the weight off at first and I have ALWAYS had an intense near-constant craving for carbs. Food rules my life. I've been afraid of it or craving it insatiably for as long as I can remember.
I wonder if it's all related. My family history exacerbated by an eating disorder messing up my metabolism, triggered by the weight gain cause by PCOS at puberty. Anyone else with experience of multiple compounding problems?????
Can I thank you guys again just for being here whilst I go crazy and scream and rant....
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