Yeah I figured my rather unstable life at the moment would probably not be helping too much! They've pretty much just said to run higher for a while but I can't deal with feeling even remotely high, it's awful! And because I can't pinpoint my lows to a particular time of day or anything it's difficult to try and adjust without having to expect at least some highs...there just don't seem to be any alternatives, but it's hard to explain to my team who've never actually had to experience being high why I can't put myself through that. I think I have the same fear of being high as most other people do of being low!
Your current 'unstable life, shifts, unhealthily high-carb diet, emergency cereal bars, fear of being high' suggest to me that you are enduring a roller coaster of highs
and lows. Is that correct?
If so, I recognise it and have been there. Changing your diet may be the ideal way to get off the roller coaster and achieve more and more middle-of-the-road bs numbers, which could then be tweaked downwards gradually over several months.
I hate highs too. I do hate that oppressive, itchy, exhausted, hot-eyed, headache-y feeling that highs can give me.
I prefer veering to low: maybe it's the sense of preparing for flight or fight because I feel energised and virtuous that my bs is not high.
However, beyond this, in the low 3 or 2 or even 1, is a different matter. Many of us know that this low can leave you on the floor unable to act at all, or worse.
Perhaps this is why the article cited hypos as being the worst fear for a person with diabetes. In reality, it's probably the worst fear of people
without diabetes who witness or are called upon to treat the hypo.