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Borrowed time?

STR1KER

STR1KER

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Type of diabetes
Type 1
Treatment type
Insulin
Since diagnosed 1 year ago I've been feeling like I'm living on borrowed time due to medical science. When I look in the fridge I look how much insulin I have and say to myself how much life I have in there, almost as as if I'm asking myself am I supposed to still be here. Borrowed time is constantly in my head is this normal and does it persist on impacting my life like it should as an everyday thought in your mind?
 
Well I suppose I am living on borrowed time too as I had an emergency caesarean 28 years ago when I had a placental abruption at 30 weeks pregnant. Then there's my son who would have died if I didn't have the operation. I prefer to think of it as living till the right time for us to die.

I believe we all live as long as we are meant to, so it doesn't impact on my life at all. I'm just grateful to be here. :)

Oh and welcome to the forum. :)
 
STR1KER said:
Since diagnosed 1 year ago I've been feeling like I'm living on borrowed time due to medical science. When I look in the fridge I look how much insulin I have and say to myself how much life I have in there, almost as as if I'm asking myself am I supposed to still be here. Borrowed time is constantly in my head is this normal and does it persist on impacting my life like it should as an everyday thought in your mind?
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I agree with you STRIKER: diabetes is a challenge and a daily challenge at that. You mention insulin but I thought you were Diabetes 2-- is that right? I thought that only Diabetics 1 take insulin, and it is stronger than the anty-hyperglycemia drugs n'est pas?
 
BD and AD. Before Diabetes and After Diabetes. Probably normal tbh as without insulin we'd have a very short time left. I have the serious case of the **** it's now and again but it's short because of that saying choose your hard. Cakes now and complications later or no cake and no complications.
It's borrowed time like any other chronic condition that needs medication. Happy days but I am glad I'm not dead.
It is hard but again a long time dead. I wouldn't make a good life coach or Samaritan would I?
But yes I would say you are a normal diabetic. Welcome to the most popular group that no one wants to belong to.
But there are loads of us to listen and some can give fantastic advice and they are very nice.
 
Hi ST1KER and welcome to the forum.

You shouldn't really be thinking along those lines and I'm wondering if your still struggling to come to terms with your diagnosis, there's nothing stopping you from leading a full & active life with type 1 diabetes and if things become to much for you then do seek professional help from your HCP's.
 
Hi and welcome to the forum. It can seem hopeless sometimes and it can take some time to get your head around everything. I find trying to think positively is the best solution. You may look in the fridge and see all the insulin staring back at you but as one old guy once said to me "every day above ground is a good day". Hopefully you will find some inspiration from some of the members on the forum. I will tag @daisy1 to post you some great information to read. If you have any questions dont be afraid to ask.
 
Hi @STR1KER

You don't die from the condition, you do from complications caused by not being in control.
There is nothing to be afraid of the condition. You have to learn to come to terms with the fact that you need to look after yourself better, the more knowledge you have, the more you realize, the more you can do with your life.
 
Hi @striker. 16 years ago I was told I only had weeks to live, so that's a hell of a lot of borrowed time!! To be honest I feel privileged to be one of the lucky ones that have been given another chance. Life is a wonderful thing and I have no intention of 'paying back' my 'borrowed time' for many many years yet! :D:D Sue xxx
 
Thanks for the warm welcome guys!! I feel I haven't accepted this and I'm going with the flow hoping it will go away lol. It's changed my life completely around eating, working out, walking, working. Patterns!! I really hate it but my kids keep me going. How do you accept a life changer that makes things 10 times hard work? Even to the point where everyone says my rucksack is a man bag. It's borrowed time? It's hard time?
 
STR1KER said:
Thanks for the warm welcome guys!! I feel I haven't accepted this and I'm going with the flow hoping it will go away lol. It's changed my life completely around eating, working out, walking, working. Patterns!! I really hate it but my kids keep me going. How do you accept a life changer that makes things 10 times hard work? Even to the point where everyone says my rucksack is a man bag. It's borrowed time? It's hard time?
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If you really want a response, that maybe change your thoughts.

I have to eat salad for most of my meals with protein, I can have eggs and have a very limited diet!

Once you are in control and your in control of your blood glucose levels, then you can eat an awful lot more than I can!

Don't feel sorry for me! I have found that my lifestyle is the best thing that has happened to me!
I am fitter, healthier, better life all round, and I will be around for a good while yet!

You can do it, if I can!
 
But it is time mate! Choose your hard - I choose to carry on - with the odd Saturday spent in pyjamas! All day - I'm hard core when I sulk! Also lots of sugar free jelly.
You are still here because you have your kids to look after if you need a reason and you've identified that yourself so you are coping even if you have doubts. You and your man bag are surviving so you must give yourself credit.
By the way none of us are perfect even if it seems it from what people write.
Keep posting!
 
That is amazing how you are so possotive about It all. I feel me joining here will help me accept this and become a better person. Thank you all for the wonderful advice.
 
STR1KER said:
Thanks for the warm welcome guys!! I feel I haven't accepted this and I'm going with the flow hoping it will go away lol. It's changed my life completely around eating, working out, walking, working. Patterns!! I really hate it but my kids keep me going. How do you accept a life changer that makes things 10 times hard work? Even to the point where everyone says my rucksack is a man bag. It's borrowed time? It's hard time?
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Unfortunately (at least for the time-being) it won't go away.

You've said yourself that your still struggling to accept your diagnosis and that is the problem, all I would suggest is stick around the forum and share your thoughts and experiences with people who know what you are going through, but as said earlier if your struggling to cope and have negative thoughts then don't be afraid to ask for help from your HCP's.

Hopefully in time things will become much easier for you.
 
Your rucksack carries your Elixir of Life :) So what if people call it a man bag, pay them no attention, it doesn't matter what they think. You're 29, trust me, life gets easier in your 30s then easier again in your 40s, because you care less what other people think.

When I was 21 I became ill with a condition that causes pain and fatigue, and which probably won't go away. It took me years to accept it and look after myself every day without feeling bad about it. Please don't waste several years like I did.

I hope you will find good support and info here, but if you're still feeling this way in another couple of months then it would be worth telling your doctor about it, and they might be able to help.

Good luck and keep us posted :)
 
Morning @STR1KER ! I have learnt so much from the people on this forum. Certainly it seems that many if not most people go through a time of 'adjustment' where our emotions are all over the place. It's a massive change to not just to our own lives but for everyone around us, no wonder we feel down/confused/angry etc! My best advice to you is be kind to yourself, life can be hard enough sometimes, so we don't need to beat ourselves up! Look at those kids and smile :):):) Sue x
 
Morning Striker, hello, it's nice to meet you. Many type 1's have had diabetes for 30.40, 50 years and even more. We are still here and carrying on as normal ( I had my now teen at 42 1/2 years, my best diabetes moment :)). Don't let your medical condition bring you down, because it often makes us more tougher. Sometimes, it's not a walk in the park, but you have so much more in you and a life to enjoy too. It can be big shock to many, especially the younger adults, but it will get a little easier and remember diabetes is just a small part of who you are. Don't count the days, make the days count.
If there is anything you want to know or even to have a good moan, please just go ahead and ask.

Take care and al the best RRB
 
I think that's one of the big differences between T1 and T2. Most T2's have some sort of warning, tiredness, weight gain etc and sometimes the actual diagnosis is a good thing because we then have an answer to what is causing those symptoms.

With T1 it's more sudden and is a change of life because of the need to carry supplies around with you all the time. As a T2 woman who never carries a handbag I too would hate the inconvenience of it all. So you have 2 issues, the inconvenience and also what people think of a 'manbag'. I am sure both of these issues will get easier in time and as for the 'manbag' real men do what has to be done, don't they? I think a rucksack is a good idea because lots of people carry those around, whether diabetic or not. :)
 
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I think that's one of the big differences between T1 and T2. Most T2's have some sort of warning, tiredness, weight gain etc and sometimes the actual diagnosis is a good thing because we then have an answer to what is causing those symptoms.

With T1 it's more sudden and is a change of life because of the need to carry supplies around with you all the time. As a T2 woman who never carries a handbag I too would hate the inconvenience of it all. So you have 2 issues, the inconvenience and also what people think of a 'manbag'. I am sure both of these issues will get easier in time and as for the 'manbag' real men do what has to be done, don't they? I think a rucksack is a good idea because lots of people carry those around, whether diabetic or not. :)
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I have a manbag too - and I'm not a man!! If its any consolation my friends lovingly call me the bag lady!! :D:D:D Although sometimes it feels like a suitcase would be more useful! Sue xxxx
 
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