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Hi everybody,
Although i have been a member of Diabetes.co.uk for awhile this is the first time i have ever posted something, lol, turnaway now if you really dont want me to ruin ur good mood! The base of this post is i am in quite alot of trouble and i now do not know what to do. For my twenty first b.day i was diagnosed as a type 1 diabetic, i went into hospital with a reading of 37.5, i'm told, and was on the verge of a coma.Needless to say i came round and recieved my b.day news that i was tp1 diabetic and had been through my teens which explains why my educational life was pretty horrific. I was put on insulin straight away. A few months went by and i was adjusting to my meds, then suddenly evrything started to fall apart, the meds stopped working. Every cold i got i had for four months, my work suffered and although quite shy already in certain aspects i stated to really become an introvert. Eventually i was put on novarapid and lantus. My sugars were all over the place. Work wise i was terminated nearly two years ago because i seemed to be ill everyday, needless to say this year i was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and M.E and vitamin deficiences. My so called friends alienated me, i feel detached from my family and so far i have not had any good results for any of these problems. The other doctors said they would not treat me unless i got my diabetes under control but i am trying but the other stuff effects my diabetes, i am in a catch 22 situation. The other things are that my skin smells quite bad when i am given food that has certain stuff (i am now very food and drink sensitive/allergies) or medication that does not work, i have a hard time at explaining this and trying to make people understand, on occasions i have even been made the butt of jokes from the medical proffession while sick in hospital. The other thing is i am now under the care of two drs who did not believe how much trouble i was suffering years ago and called me a hypacondriac. I now get so angry and upset i cant focus on anything anymore, these people cost me my jobs and now i have to see them again because i am told they are the top in their profession? To make matters worse i dont feel like i can really talk to them politely as i have now a major issue with my behaviour, most of the time i am an angry horrible person with nothing nice to say about anything and my temper is off the charts. This in turn has caused my own mother wishing that i was a million miles away and when i was living with my father i was probably the bain of his life. I wish that evry night i fall to sleep that i dont wake up in the morning, i went from being somebody who could handle themselves to a useless fruitcake. I know i am depressed, yes of course but i've seen people get through that so why can't i? You know i'm not even meant to be on the p.c? The m.e consultant says no tv, no p.c no radio no books, i mean give me a break what am i meant to do? Sit and go quietly insane? Can anybody help, i know its a big ask, but i'm stuck indoors all day and well i'm obviously doing everything wrong. Any advice would be greatly appreciated,thanks x
The loneranger.
Although i have been a member of Diabetes.co.uk for awhile this is the first time i have ever posted something, lol, turnaway now if you really dont want me to ruin ur good mood! The base of this post is i am in quite alot of trouble and i now do not know what to do. For my twenty first b.day i was diagnosed as a type 1 diabetic, i went into hospital with a reading of 37.5, i'm told, and was on the verge of a coma.Needless to say i came round and recieved my b.day news that i was tp1 diabetic and had been through my teens which explains why my educational life was pretty horrific. I was put on insulin straight away. A few months went by and i was adjusting to my meds, then suddenly evrything started to fall apart, the meds stopped working. Every cold i got i had for four months, my work suffered and although quite shy already in certain aspects i stated to really become an introvert. Eventually i was put on novarapid and lantus. My sugars were all over the place. Work wise i was terminated nearly two years ago because i seemed to be ill everyday, needless to say this year i was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and M.E and vitamin deficiences. My so called friends alienated me, i feel detached from my family and so far i have not had any good results for any of these problems. The other doctors said they would not treat me unless i got my diabetes under control but i am trying but the other stuff effects my diabetes, i am in a catch 22 situation. The other things are that my skin smells quite bad when i am given food that has certain stuff (i am now very food and drink sensitive/allergies) or medication that does not work, i have a hard time at explaining this and trying to make people understand, on occasions i have even been made the butt of jokes from the medical proffession while sick in hospital. The other thing is i am now under the care of two drs who did not believe how much trouble i was suffering years ago and called me a hypacondriac. I now get so angry and upset i cant focus on anything anymore, these people cost me my jobs and now i have to see them again because i am told they are the top in their profession? To make matters worse i dont feel like i can really talk to them politely as i have now a major issue with my behaviour, most of the time i am an angry horrible person with nothing nice to say about anything and my temper is off the charts. This in turn has caused my own mother wishing that i was a million miles away and when i was living with my father i was probably the bain of his life. I wish that evry night i fall to sleep that i dont wake up in the morning, i went from being somebody who could handle themselves to a useless fruitcake. I know i am depressed, yes of course but i've seen people get through that so why can't i? You know i'm not even meant to be on the p.c? The m.e consultant says no tv, no p.c no radio no books, i mean give me a break what am i meant to do? Sit and go quietly insane? Can anybody help, i know its a big ask, but i'm stuck indoors all day and well i'm obviously doing everything wrong. Any advice would be greatly appreciated,thanks x
The loneranger.