Hello all you lucky pumpers,
i was going to post this in a different forum topic but i thought why not post it in here with the pumping experts right?
so...
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i've had diabetes for a year on tuesday...
i started off on two injections.. which i know works well for some people but or me big no no. my life varies just too much...
so i request to be put on 4 a day (novo rapid and lantus) ... wahey.. then the trouble starts... highs over 30 and not noticing hypos until i test my sugar and its 2.8 but i feel fine.. tweaking and tweaking....
HBA1C of 16.3 in sept
O I KNOW!
after the hardwork and getting no where i hate to admit. i gave up.. i hardly took my insulin.. was hospitalized 3 times on thebrink of DKA
then i had an epiphany. my mum was beyond sad with my deteriation, my dad died when i was 13 of a result of poor controlled diabetes and non related heart problems.. which to be honest could be related by that stage...
so now i haven't missed an injection, i'm on anti-depressants which are working. i keep a full diary of all tests and food intake.. i keep to a healthy diet and i have more exercise. i no longer weigh under 8 stone...
i dont want to die from a disease that can be well controlled with effort and determination, i dont want to be overcome by a disease an 8 year old can do with a smile on his/her face, i want to be proud of the badge i carry called diabetes that im proud i can wear it and still hold my chin up high and say 'im just like you but with extra effort
'
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looking for tips and browsing on here i decided to read up on insulin pumps. oh my what the best thing i've ever laid my eyes on.
so here come the questions...
how does one come about getting one?
do i have to meet certain requirements to be considered?
will my bad past of controlling my diabetes affect my possibility?
are they alot harder than they look?
i'm afraid that if i ask my doctor i will get the look of 'you dont deserve one' i fell off the wagon.. its just hard for everything to change so rapidly aswell diabetes i had a bad break up and my stepfather of 16 years left home leaving me with a heartbroken mum and a distraught 13 year old sister a month after being diagnosed... i know its hard for everyone.. and maybe i dont deserve one but i really am trying now.. my HBA1c is in two weeks and from 16% me and my DN think it could be around 8 or 9 due to recent improving results
fingers crossed..
i guess this was halfway between looking for answers having a rant and apologising to myself.
agh.
peace outx
i was going to post this in a different forum topic but i thought why not post it in here with the pumping experts right?
so...

i've had diabetes for a year on tuesday...
i started off on two injections.. which i know works well for some people but or me big no no. my life varies just too much...
so i request to be put on 4 a day (novo rapid and lantus) ... wahey.. then the trouble starts... highs over 30 and not noticing hypos until i test my sugar and its 2.8 but i feel fine.. tweaking and tweaking....
HBA1C of 16.3 in sept

after the hardwork and getting no where i hate to admit. i gave up.. i hardly took my insulin.. was hospitalized 3 times on thebrink of DKA
then i had an epiphany. my mum was beyond sad with my deteriation, my dad died when i was 13 of a result of poor controlled diabetes and non related heart problems.. which to be honest could be related by that stage...
so now i haven't missed an injection, i'm on anti-depressants which are working. i keep a full diary of all tests and food intake.. i keep to a healthy diet and i have more exercise. i no longer weigh under 8 stone...
i dont want to die from a disease that can be well controlled with effort and determination, i dont want to be overcome by a disease an 8 year old can do with a smile on his/her face, i want to be proud of the badge i carry called diabetes that im proud i can wear it and still hold my chin up high and say 'im just like you but with extra effort

....
looking for tips and browsing on here i decided to read up on insulin pumps. oh my what the best thing i've ever laid my eyes on.
so here come the questions...
how does one come about getting one?
do i have to meet certain requirements to be considered?
will my bad past of controlling my diabetes affect my possibility?
are they alot harder than they look?
i'm afraid that if i ask my doctor i will get the look of 'you dont deserve one' i fell off the wagon.. its just hard for everything to change so rapidly aswell diabetes i had a bad break up and my stepfather of 16 years left home leaving me with a heartbroken mum and a distraught 13 year old sister a month after being diagnosed... i know its hard for everyone.. and maybe i dont deserve one but i really am trying now.. my HBA1c is in two weeks and from 16% me and my DN think it could be around 8 or 9 due to recent improving results

i guess this was halfway between looking for answers having a rant and apologising to myself.
agh.
peace outx