Sukaren you have every right to say no to medication, do you have high cholesterol? If so have you tried to reduce it via other means other than medication, eg diet, cutting down fat, taking the good oils, porridge, garlic/onions,wholegrqains, nuts and seeds,exercise are all useful. If you have not consciously made an effort to deal with this issue, maybe you should try and then if this doesnt work speak with your doctor about your worries re statins, maybe there is an alternative, do a google search on how to reduce cholesterol but dont buy expensive supplments that claim to cure everything.
Have you asked for a blood test to check your hormones, maybe you have started the peri-menopause?
I think almost everyone in here has been depressed at one point or another, so you are safe with us, the outside world can be a bit funny, people understand tooth ache and flu, but not depression/anxiety, probably because they have never experienced it before; just thinking would it be worth to contact the Depression Alliance?
It must be very stressful looking after the business and household and all that, do you take time out from it? It doesnt have to be a holiday, just an afternoon or evening maybe, anything to get you out so that you have as change of scenery from your daily routine, it might do your hubby good too, do something new, go line dancing, to the cinema, learn a new skill together, some college courses are just run classes just for an hour once a week, go to the gym, you might feel shy about it, but the people with their perfect bodies have not always been perfect, there is so much fun out there you are lonely, go out and meet new people, think about it, you are depriving us all of the chance of meeting you, getting to know you by hiding away, gosh and think how much you have to offer, I know you are depressed but this is all part of a course of the University of Life, next time you are out someone might say they cant go on, you can jump right in there and offer support, just think all the things that you have experienced equip you to help someone else to feel better?
You are not even old, I hsve to say that because I am the same age as you, hehehehe, but no seriously you have a long life ahead of you yet, so you better do your level best to make some positive, fun changes to your life - do you wear make up? If not start wearing some, try out nail extensions or a new hairstyle, making changes doesnt have to be expensive either. I treated myself to nail extensions, walked out of the salon feeling like a million dollars and then realised I probably will lose a million dollars till I get used to this new talons, try and I might the first month I just couldnt pick up coins, I felt a real idiot and people must have thought I am super rich because I tipped everyone I came across just because I oouldnt handle coins DOH
Ok now I have rambled back at you, see I am much better at rambling than you are, nah-de-nah-de-nah-nah-dah
Dont ever worry about rambling on, its not good to bottle things up and its good to do it here, at the same time you are helping yourself as well as others.
Love from me x
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