Hi Becky,
I’ve never done anything on this forum before, so I hope I’m getting this right… I was diagnosed T2 last summer, and when I found out diet could impact the diabetes, I went for it. Diabetes is a disease that can and will get progressively worse, unless something’s done about it…. Pills and the like can help slow things down, yes, but diet and exercise can not only slow it down, but also reverse the condition. (It’ll never go away, but you can stay ahead of complications! Yay!)…. Considering my bad experiences with medication (I’m prone to side effects), I wasn’t going to just let myself slide into darkness. That’s how it felt, you know…? Like I had one foot in the grave, at 37 years old. Little background here: People terrify me and I am a shut-in, for the most part. People scare me so much I don’t have a job, and am at home all day, sitting by the computer doing not much of anything useful. Anyway… A lot of foods are triggers for my rheumatism (all dairy), and migraines (too many triggers to get into). It makes me a picky eater, because I rather like being able to retain the use of my hands and being able to, you know, think. So I spent about two months figuring out foods. Not only what could I eat without triggering joint pain, migraines and sugar-spikes, but also, what did I actually enjoy eating? What wouldn’t feel like a sacrifice or punishment? Hummus was a revelation (Didn’t do anything for me until I found one with sundried tomatoes mixed in. Heaven, and still low-carb!), and I found an Italian veggie mix at the local supermarket which I eat every day. I found crackers that didn’t remind me of cardboard (crackers with rosemary and seasalt… Good!) , and a salad I have at lunch. Breakfast comes from the freezer; blue berries, with some brazil- and walnuts to keep my cholesterol under control to boot. Herbal teas to stabilise my sugar, keep the cholesterol down, and relax me some… I found a chocolate bar with stevia instead of sugar and no milk, (Céréal)) so I can actually still eat chocolate…. Just a piece at a time, not entire bars, but that’s fine; it still feels like a clandestine treat and makes me happy. Basically, I changed everything, because I used to just plain barely eat…. I’d have drinks with high-sugar content to get me through the day, skip breakfast and lunch, and I’d have something meaty, high-carby, high in animal fats in the evening, but that was about it. Now I have my fruit and nuts in the morning, two crackers with hummus and cold cuts three hours later, three hours after that a salad, then more crackers, veggies and low-fat high protein meat (usually chicken or something else lean/unprocessed), and before bed, more crackers. I eat six times a day, every three hours, about 100 grams of carbs a day, usually less… And it works just fine for me; my levels are in the “normal” range, unless it’s as ridiculously hot as it is now, now they’re a little wonky, but I still don’t hit 10. Anyway… For all that, I didn’t start losing weight (after the diabetes took the initial 10 kilo’s off), until I got a little fitness apparatus that fit at the foot end of my bed. Like I said, I sit all day, and I’m not going to go outside for a walk: there are people out there! So putting on some headphones with my favorite music and hitting my stepper made a huge difference: I lost another ten kilo’s. (I was 102 kilo’s when I started to crash due to undiagnosed diabetes. I’m at 82 now. 8 more to go for my target-weight!). So if being relatively immobile due to the “aaargh why are there people in the street when I need to move about?!” factor is an issue, just find something that’ll be easy to do at home. I didn’t have room for a home trainer or a treadmill, but just keep looking and you’ll find something, just like I did. People don’t realise how much exercise they get just going outside to work or shop or whatever… When you’re home all day everything just grinds to a halt, and you might want to tackle that somehow. I know you mentioned quitting sugars, but the things you mention you do eat are, as others have pointed out, high in carbs… Which get turned into sugar in our bodies. I know it’s hard, especially when eating brings comfort as well, and eating differently might have consequences (having to get over whatever it is that closes up your throat when you try to eat something for you; trying things that had an impact on the migraines and such for me), but it is worth it in the long run. Also, yes, people are hard and you don’t want to see a doctor, so I’m guessing a shrink is out of the question too (as it is for me, so yeah, I really do know where you’re coming from), but you might want to delve into the relationship you have with food… Why does this closing-up happen? Is there some underlying problem/trauma you can deal with to let your body let you take proper care of yourself? Self-help books might help….? Because it does sound a bit like an eating disorder, and there’s been truckloads of books written on that. That’s kindof my go-to, for medical issues anyway…. (I think I have the depression more or less under control now, far as that’s possible.)But maybe that could help?
It’s not easy. Far from it, any of it… I know. And I know exactly what kind of stumbling blocks there are for people like us. But I manage, somehow. So I believe, you can too. If you want to, if you choose to. There’s a thousand reasons you can come up with why you can’t, probably. All you need is to find one reason why you can.
Good luck.
Jo from the Netherlands