Hello m8, I read your post & it has brought back a lot of memories for me. I was in the Army for 9 years until 5 years ago & it was all I had ever wanted to do. I left because, you guessed it, I came back from a tour, became mega ill & collapsed, the cause?, Type 1 Diabetes. I was 27. It absolutely broke my heart. I was farmed out to all branches & services but 1 by 1 they all said "NO". They said I could leave of my own accord or be put in stores & stack blankets, I would not be MD'd. I didn't join 2 sit in stores so signed off, I wasn't allowed to go on tour or exercise, I wasn't even allowed out of camp for 2 months!. It was very harsh treatment. However, if I hadn't have got T1 I would not be a civvy, if I wasn't a civvy I wouldn't be married & if I wasn't married I wouldn't have 2 beautiful kids. A year after leaving I was accosted by a lady, in a nice way!, @ a county show I drifted into when out for a walk with my future wife. This lady turned out to be from something called ' The Veterans Agency '. The long & the short is that after a medical & an interview, I am now classed by the MOD as being ' disabled ' ( laughable really as I run 6 miles a day!!! ). I get a pension every month, it isn't a lot & I put it into an account for that inevitable ' rainy day '. What I'm trying to say is that I was in your boots not too long ago. I've done the whole " why me " thing & got so down I didn't think I could get back up. I'm still struggling with it now but getting loads more help than I did from the Army/MOD. There are people out there that will help & things WILL get loads better mate!. Sorry for waffling!. If you are ever stuck then drop me a line, I've done it all & not too long ago. Al.