Re: Diabetes sucks: hey. we're all allowed to have a moan he
Well Sparky, you took all of the words I have written in my journal, pretty much verbatim. I was diagnosed in July, and I have had good days and bad days, like all of us I am sure! Shopping has become a battleground; I seem to live my life by numbers (health, food, excercise) med changes, trying new things, fighting cravings, ALL of it....yes, I have had days where I am exhilarated by trying to change my smaller habits to make a bigger change, and yes alright being diagnosed was the kick up the **** I needed to turn my life 180 degrees and change for the better blah blah..I have had several DSD's (Diabetes Sucks Days!) - I got the idea for the after seeing pictures of patient with neuropathy and have stumps instead of feet, a chap had these pictures on his phone to motivate him to lose weight, which apparently worked (Or perhaps it was because he was on the Newcastle Diet) :?
I am so glad to be here, so many ppl have said the same things that I feel on these days, I know I just got a job for life, only I didn't want it, didn't apply for it, and there is no holiday leave, no health perks...and I feel like the bars of Shawshank envelope around me. But it is here in Shawshank (We are all innocent here, right?! 8) ) that Red put so well ' Get busy livin'. or get busy dyin'.' Perhaps it might be a cliche, but at the moment, the ambivalence I feel about my diabetes means I will take song lyrics, film quotes, poems even, to try to help me understand and cope with this maelstrom of feelings inside me. Besides, most people moan about their jobs...
Why can't we all have a whine now and then? Others may not understand how much change and adjustment being diagnosed needs to be implemented, especially if you, like me, are determined to grab this diabetes round the neck and throttle it into submission. Fighting a battle like that requires planning, strategy and precision, and the added pressure of knowing that if you don't take action, you could invaded with multiple forces and it will be unpleasant, AND trying to incorporate it all into your existing lifestyle... etc etc...GAAHHH!! :crazy:
I think many who do not have experienced diabetes believe that it's just a diet change; be we know that what it really is a lifestyle change, and any life change always takes adjustment time, and even when we have adjusted and adapted and all that, we will still have these days. It never goes away, but I know it will get easier, it's just soooooooo hard at the moment! Hang in there, it CAN only get better...
thanks for giving us a place to vent our crazy somewhere accepting...