Hi
@juliekem can I just say please don't feel a failure, as you put it. You're
not a failure. And you've taken many steps in your journey, including the one on Saturday!
I'm afraid I can't advise as I haven't been down this route, but I just want to say wow, brilliant, and I hope (I'm sure there is) someone out there you can share support with. Is there a support group your consultant can put you in touch with?
Things will get easier, I'm sure they will. It's early days - you're only a week in - but you can do this!
Hugs!
Love Snapsy