Hi briony
I have to say dont worry about having these thoughts - it happens to all of us every once in a while! Ive had diabetes for 24 years (im 25) and the worry never goes away. Some days you end up crying just thinking all the things that can go wrong. Plus diabetes is a 24 hpur 7 day a week jobs with np holiday
When i feel like this, i so some yoga (some are into it some arent!). When i do the poses, i become grateful for the gift of movement as some people arent able to do any poses as they cant walk elderly etc. Its also really therapuetic and makes me think lofe could be so much worse - i could have terminal cancer or something just as bad. Yoga also de stresses me and just makes me feel more positive about everything
if you've never tried give it a go! Or something meditation related if yoga isnt your thing.
Over the years ive embraced 'i control diabetes, diabetes doesnt control me'. I hit really rock bottom a few years ago as was in total burn out, sufferring with diabulemia and just didnt care. But sometimes you have to go to that dark place to get back in the right direction again.
On a positive note, ive had diabetes for this long I have no complications, fit and well, really happy and im doing the great north run half marathon this year
so you can live a full happy normal life!
We all have bad days - just remember we are all diabadass's
Gabby x