The last time i checked glucose levels it was at 16.1
I dont monitor it because i know it is going to be high so that test was the only test i have done for 18 months
cooking is microwave meals or snacking on anything close to hand. i very occasionalylike once every few weeks i go and get a haircut walking to the barbers is the most i do. I tend to drink water that has been cooled in the fridge with the occasional bottle of pepsi max. I dont even go shopping having groceries delivered, empty fridge other than milk and butter and loads of freezer meals in freezer.
My son hasnta clue how i feel as i put on a happy face when he is around most of the time he is on his pc or out with his friends. When he is i have a big show on how i am ok. I dont intend on spoiling his last year of school and potentioal exam results just because his dad is a waste of space.
OK, thanks. Well the good starting point is that you don't drink. That has been my achilles heel - I feel the need to drink as what I perceive as the only way to wind down. Giving it up has been difficult for me, but, hand-in-hand with medication and dietary change, I am starting to feel human again.
The other good starting point is that with those sort of levels, we know that's why you feel so **** (it's undeniable - I felt the same way in the months leading to my diagnosis) and it bodes well that once it is under control, you *will* feel a ton better, and you'll be in a better position to start finding the real things that make us all happy - friends, partners, family, career, hobbies etc.
So, let's go back to basics. Imagine your normal day now. What is so busy about it that you couldn't plan your diet? I suspect you'll realise that time is more abundant than you realise, that you fill it with things that don't make you feel better or better a out yourself.
Do not buy another microwave meal. They are **** and they are full of ****. As a diabetic, they are completely untuned to what your body needs. Go to your kitchen cupboards/fridge-freezer now and take out the following: Any cereals, bread, biscuits, sweets, rice, pasta, potatoes. You'll not need these now.
Look at anything prepared or made in a factory. Look at the nutrition labelling on these. As a rule of thumb, start to get rid of anything that is high in carbs and anything that has more than one or two grammes of sugar. Check sauces - some of them are ridiculously high in sugar. All this stuff is slowly killing you as a diabetic.
Next, go to the supermarket or your local shops. Go yourself, bags in hand to replace what you just removed from your kitchen. Aim to end up with at least 80% in your trolley as single ingredient items - things that grow above ground, that swam in the sea and that lived on land, or anything that an animal produced. If it's in tins, boxes, packets or fresh or frozen, it doesn't matter. Make sure you have herbs and spices, because they're going to make this whole thing nice. Look at what is available on the shelves, read the labels and don't just fall into a habit of buying the same things.
Now, recognise that you are going to cook. Use the Internet; it will tell you how. Phone friends that you haven't spoken to for a while. Tell them you will cook for them. This raises the bar for you, and they'll invariably return the favour. Accept that some of what you make will be rubbish. Life is all about trial and error.
Identify somewhere near to you that is pleasant; a park, a cafe, a river, a high-street...anything within a mile or so. Three days a week, force yourself to walk there, walk around a bit and walk back. Lengthen the walk as you see fit. Don't forget to smile and say hi to other folks; I find getting a response from a stranger gives me a little warm feeling, because you realise that all the other humans out there are nice (on the whole) and that reaffirms your desire to be out and about.
Finally, if friends or family ever offer to help you out, take it. You will both feel better for having done so.