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elliebelly

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Hello everyone. I really need some help . I am due to go back to the diabetic clinic on Monday and need to make a decision. Very long story short. I have been on my pump for about two years. I have had a lot of problems since going on it. I had a TIA last October 12 months. Thankfully all ok now. Blood pressure very high at the time and i am also overweight. This august I had two knee surgeries. First surgery not a success so had to have a second operation which had me in a leg brace for 12 weeks . I am out of work six months now and hope to go back in March. Anyway, before surgery I was taken off my pump and put back on injections. I feel i am taking a lot of insulin as i am not very active at the moment. I am on Novorapid ,28,22,28 and 55 units of Lantus. Is this a lot? I have not ever been very controlled and am overweight by about 4 stone. I can not exercise much at the moment and am still eating and taking more insulin. Feel link Im on a hamster wheel and getting very down in myself. I need to decide if i want to go back on my pump again. I really enjoy the freedom of not having it attached and the freedom injections give me. On the other hand it would take 55 units of Lantus away form my daily dose. Would lantus put on weight? Do not know what to do. Would any other pumpers have advice :( :( for me . I am feeling very confused as I have a lot to think about at the moment and feel my head is about to explode. Thank you for listening to me. Kind regards to all.
 
Oh gosh.. You been through the mill!! But.. You coming out the otherside now... Slowly.. But on a positive note if you are preparing to go back to work and thinking of your choices for your diabetes then you are being proactive now.

I am personally biased to an insulin pump for its flexibilty on life in general.. And my better hba1c. I'm not perfect on it.. But thats life... Not just me.. Nobody is perfect...

What do you consider being the pro's and con's of pump to injections? Some people have indeed had breaks from pumps and resumed them.. Will tour hispital let you keep your pump and supplies if you give it up then go back to it?

Think back too.. Why did you go from mdi to pump? Afe those points still relevent.

I would never give up my pump... Although I do consider it when I am going through a bad time of it with it... Occlusions, failures etc... But although I review my thoughts on it.. At the end of the day, my DP has gone.. As has my background retinopathy, and my levels are far, far more stable on it than off it.

Do you have any inclination of how your hcp's may react when you see them?
 
Thank you so much for your reply. I have a new pump which has never been used. My last pump was damaged in an MRI machine before surgery. The pump is mine so I do not have to give it back. I spoke to the clinic and my diabetic nurse and told her i was not sure about going back on the pump and she told me to give it six months . That time is now up. My blood sugars were never very good an if am being honest I did not mind my condition very well. I hate having diabetes and get very complacent about it. At times I do not even want to think about it. I have been told i have never accepted my diabetes even though I have it 14 years . I still can not get my head around it and having the pump attached is a constant reminder. I feel very upset with myself when I think of some of the diseases i could have . Diabetes is nothing if i think about what I could have. Guilt is another problem. Im such a mess. So glad I can vent here. Thank you all.
 
Aaaaah Elliebelly, I recognise so much of what you say in last post.?i too had a period of complacency.. I'm 27 yrs.
My problem was that having been td I wouldnt have a nice long life, and that I would get complications it knocks me in to two worlds... Ever since my diagnosis and still am...

I dislike D too. Intensely. Which then gets me thinking why bother, why give a ****... You were told you would die early grom complications so why bother...To the point of serious depressive thoughts...

Then I think.. I got a pump, and life.. Give it a go.. And trouble is with me nowadays, is that I get too weighed down then with wanting to get good results...

Our diabetes and living isn't easier... To be honest, I have never had a single hcp ask how I feel about my diabetes and life.... And yet they know so many of us have trouble balancing ourselves physically and mentally.

This is a good place to get honest thoughts from genuine diabetics who do care.

Have you family and friends around? Is anybody else diabetic around you? If like mine... They try, but they dont really appreciate...

Have you any hobbies you enjoy? I have taken up learning how to re upholster furniure in last 6 months. It gives me an interest where I really escape with my thoughts and the other 5 ladies and our teacher. It gives me sense of balance in all the madness around me.

I cant tell you to turn yourself into caring.. As only you can do that, but am certainly here, along with other **** good people for support.. And I hope that it may give you some help.
 
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