Help! I have so much weight to lose

[Scandichic]

OK, so I woke up too late to go for a walk (I like to be here when hubby is getting up and ready for work) Now I'm tearful because you're all being so nice and caring and helpful.

@semiphonic thanks for that......I probably won't get around to trying the recipe for just over a week, 'cos I've got heaps to do and then I'm away for a few days. Now that you've gone to the trouble of telling me it, I will definitely try it. Thank you for being so kind and supportive. There's absolutely no reason why I couldn't find the time to prepare good food for myself. I don't work and yes I could cook in bulk and freeze stuff.......... but I don't. I don't really mind cooking either, but other stuff gets in the way and I'm not a tidy worker, so I don't like the mess I make when I'm cooking. I don't like the mess I make when I'm doing anything.

Has he gone yet? Why not go now? If it's peace you require, then why not find a nice public park with loads of people so you feel safe and connect to an iPod, iPhone, or any other device where you can listen to music. And if you haven't got one and can afford it buy one then go for a walk! I got my girls when they were young a little apple shuffle for £40 from apple and argos or as little as £24 on ebay or amazon. Take care and don't be sad! Xxx

 

[Scandichic]

Good morning Zand and Scandi you early birds ! Let's hope today is a better day for all of us . Going to try and get in my pool for a bit of exercise as hubby says that's what they do to horses with bad legs ! Don't know where he gets the comparison unless he means I have been eating like one lately !


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Morning Connie! Good swim?!

 

[zand]

Has he gone yet? Why not go now? If it's peace you require, then why not find a nice public park with loads of people so you feel safe and connect to an iPod, iPhone, or any other device where you can listen to music. And if you haven't got one and can afford it buy one then go for a walk! I got my girls when they were young a little apple shuffle for £40 from apple and argos or as little as £24 on ebay or amazon. Take care and don't be sad! Xxx

Yes he's gone but there's stuff I want to do now. I don't have an ipod, can't bear them, I need to be able to hear the sounds around me. I can't bear the onslaught on my brain when the music is so close to me. I do borrow one from son or husband to use with speakers in the house but when I walk I 'hear' songs in my head which are sometimes helpful. Yesterday was Sinead O'Connor - I believe in You and to my surprise my brain remembered all the words.

I probably need to say that I'm simply struggling mentally with the thought of losing any more weight. I think once I have pushed through and lost another half a stone I will be fine. At the moment I am sabotaging myself in every way I can, when I find a way to stop doing that I'm sure it will all be plain sailing again.

Right now I'm going to the supermarket.

 

[Scandichic]

Yes he's gone but there's stuff I want to do now. I don't have an ipod, can't bear them, I need to be able to hear the sounds around me. I can't bear the onslaught on my brain when the music is so close to me. I do borrow one from son or husband to use with speakers in the house but when I walk I 'hear' songs in my head which are sometimes helpful. Yesterday was Sinead O'Connor - I believe in You and to my surprise my brain remembered all the words.

I probably need to say that I'm simply struggling mentally with the thought of losing any more weight. I think once I have pushed through and lost another half a stone I will be fine. At the moment I am sabotaging myself in every way I can, when I find a way to stop doing that I'm sure it will all be plain sailing again.

Right now I'm going to the supermarket.

Are you struggling losing the weight or do you feel like you don't want to lose? I used to look and think but I like all my clothes and I can't afford new ones. My hubbie told me this was an excuse and looking back it was. Then diabetes came along and I had no choice. It is exciting when you can buy things off the peg though. Can fit into fat face dress but need to lose more weight before I will contemplate wearing it as I have clothes which look a lot nicer! Big hug!

 

[zand]

Ummmm....I feel like I don't want to lose any more. I'm scared. I'm still wearing my old clothes even though they are way too loose. The cropped jeans I am wearing today are falling down even though I've sewn another button on to make the waist tighter. I'm envious of you wearing nice things but can't see myself doing it. It's nice to see you succeeding though

 

[Debmcgee]

Might have posted in the wrong thread there ...

Welcome to my patch!! Have fun!!! X


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Diagnosed prediabetic Easter 2014. Just left to get on with it, no guidance or help from GP. Every day I'm learning something new.

 

[Indy51]

What exactly do you find so frightening about losing weight, if it's not too personal to talk about?

My weight has only ever fluctuated up to 30lbs, so I can't understand why the idea of losing weight scares people. On the other hand, I don't think losing weight is going to miraculously make people's lives better either, though many people seem to think it will and the diet business seems prey on that belief quite shamelessly.

 

[Debmcgee]

Zand. Is it because you only know yourself as fat? That you fear you won't be you if you're thinner?

I've had those feelings before. Didn't want to be noticed or for people to like me more because I was thinner. I hate the way we are judged on physical attributes and how being thin makes you a better person in society's eyes. What a load of ****!

I think my self sabotage was a bit of rebellion too to society to not conform. I still don't want to be looked at or admired physically - especially by shallow men. I want to be judged on my creativity and consideration and other good attributes of my PERSONALITY not my frigging body!

Wow that was a bit of a rant!!!


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Diagnosed prediabetic Easter 2014. Just left to get on with it, no guidance or help from GP. Every day I'm learning something new.

 

[claymic]

Zand I understand your feelings. Sometimes I feel like my body goes in panic mode when I am controlling my eating like it is scared it would starve or something. Maybe that is what then leads me to binge. Sometimes I feel angry at myself like for goodness sake its only food. It should not have such power in ny life. I hate having issues with food

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[zand]

Zand I understand your feelings. Sometimes I feel like my body goes in panic mode when I am controlling my eating like it is scared it would starve or something. Maybe that is what then leads me to binge. Sometimes I feel angry at myself like for goodness sake its only food. It should not have such power in ny life. I hate having issues with food

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yeh, me too, but then again I hate having issues at all about anything, and yeh I have loads.!

 

[zand]

Zand. Is it because you only know yourself as fat? That you fear you won't be you if you're thinner?

I've had those feelings before. Didn't want to be noticed or for people to like me more because I was thinner. I hate the way we are judged on physical attributes and how being thin makes you a better person in society's eyes. What a load of ****!

I think my self sabotage was a bit of rebellion too to society to not conform. I still don't want to be looked at or admired physically - especially by shallow men. I want to be judged on my creativity and consideration and other good attributes of my PERSONALITY not my frigging body!

Wow that was a bit of a rant!!!


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Diagnosed prediabetic Easter 2014. Just left to get on with it, no guidance or help from GP. Every day I'm learning something new.

Hmmm...I will be me if I'm thinner 'cos that's who I am really...... not sure this is such a great idea I suppose.

lol Oh yes, shallow men, well sorry.... I'm going to alienate a few people here.......I used to love being looked at by shallow men!....but even if I lose all my excess weight now it ain't gonna happen anymore 'cos I'm too old.

Oh boy, I'm getting a little too honest for my own good now.

 

[zand]

What exactly do you find so frightening about losing weight, if it's not too personal to talk about?

My weight has only ever fluctuated up to 30lbs, so I can't understand why the idea of losing weight scares people. On the other hand, I don't think losing weight is going to miraculously make people's lives better either, though many people seem to think it will and the diet business seems prey on that belief quite shamelessly.

yep, sorry it's too personal. I don't expect losing weight to miraculously change my life though, I would just like it to help me live without taking medication

 

[Scandichic]

Ummmm....I feel like I don't want to lose any more. I'm scared. I'm still wearing my old clothes even though they are way too loose. The cropped jeans I am wearing today are falling down even though I've sewn another button on to make the waist tighter. I'm envious of you wearing nice things but can't see myself doing it. It's nice to see you succeeding though

I don't know what size you are but I would suggest that you treat yourself to something new if you can afford it. I love Simply Be and you can have an account o pay by card. They have free returns so you can order in a couple of sizes and send back the ones which don't fit. If you put something on wgphich is the right size it will look and feel better and that had to be good for you on a psychological level.

 

[Scandichic]

What exactly do you find so frightening about losing weight, if it's not too personal to talk about?

My weight has only ever fluctuated up to 30lbs, so I can't understand why the idea of losing weight scares people. On the other hand, I don't think losing weight is going to miraculously make people's lives better either, though many people seem to think it will and the diet business seems prey on that belief quite shamelessly.

I agree with you. Ideally I want to lose weight because I think that the health benefits are tremendous. I don't think it resolves your problems but it takes away one or two problems caused by weight like high blood pressure and tiredness.

 

[Scandichic]

Hmmm...I will be me if I'm thinner 'cos that's who I am really...... not sure this is such a great idea I suppose.

lol Oh yes, shallow men, well sorry.... I'm going to alienate a few people here.......I used to love being looked at by shallow men!....but even if I lose all my excess weight now it ain't gonna happen anymore 'cos I'm too old.

Oh boy, I'm getting a little too honest for my own good now.

Well I'm 43 and I still get a few toots by saddos in white vans when I'm out walking. I have offered to lend them my glasses. One old man came up to me as I was walking and told me I looked lovely and summery! You couldn't make this up if you tried!

 

[zand]

I wish I was 43!

 

[Scandichic]

I wish I was 43!

I wish I was 33 and weighed 10 stone!
And rich! Did I mention rich?!
Oh well! Back to reality. Just going to load kids into the car! I could do the housework but.......

 

[zand]

I've just cleaned the fridge, and been for a blood test that I forgot about this morning.

 

[aqualung]

hello everyone...not done my walk yet as hubby did the morning walk and it is too hot for the dog during the day, so will take him out after tea. Of course I could walk without the dog! I have been clearing and tidying the drawers in the lounge where anything and everything gets shoved!

43...33...either of those would do me! and rich too. Hubby's car is in the garage as it keeps locking and unlocking. He was hoping it was a wire that had come disconnected but no such luck...it is the main board...cost about £600 new, less off ebay but not sure how much

Zand is it worth trying some of the things you don't like to see if your tastes have changed or if you can change them over time? Will completely understand if not as hubby has started LCHF but would rather not eat things he doesn't like instead of eating new things. Out of the two of us I eat plainer and simpler food but have also adapted the most. I used to hate dark chocolate, I now love it. I have always been a tea drinker but decided to try coffee with cream today - I actually really enjoyed it! I will test my bg and hopefully it will be one to have again!

scandi well done with your waliking and Zand for cleaning the fridge - that would be a workout in itself here!!

 

[zand]

Zand is it worth trying some of the things you don't like to see if your tastes have changed or if you can change them over time? Will completely understand if not as hubby has started LCHF but would rather not eat things he doesn't like instead of eating new things. Out of the two of us I eat plainer and simpler food but have also adapted the most. I used to hate dark chocolate, I now love it. I have always been a tea drinker but decided to try coffee with cream today - I actually really enjoyed it! I will test my bg and hopefully it will be one to have again!

scandi well done with your waliking and Zand for cleaning the fridge - that would be a workout in itself here!!

Yes I have been trying to eat different things for a few years now. 10 years ago I didn't eat/drink the following.... salads, nuts, chicken, tomatoes, ham, broad beans, salad dressing of any kind, sparkling mineral water, green tea, coffee. I can now eat/drink all of these things but wouldn't say I really enjoy any of them. oh I can also eat beef sausages if I take the skin off and reshape them and make them thinner and cook them in the oven! I would love to be able to eat eggs and oily fish but doubt that I ever will. The thing I might try next is lamb. I struggle with food that I have to chew a lot....so minced beef is better than steak. Right now however I just don't feel like trying anymore. I will, but not yet. I am going to focus on non diet things for a couple of weeks and then get back to low carbing properly. I am too stressed at the moment to push myself in too many areas at once.

Yes I'm pleased with my clean fridge.....that's a step in the right direction anyway. Now I'm going to prepare the veggies for our evening meal....peas, broad beans, runner beans, broccoli, cauliflower, carrots, cabbage, curly kale, then I can have lots left over for me tomorrow. I so hope the beef is nice and not too chewy or else I'll have to mince mine before I vomit trying to eat it! (delightful aren't I?) I've remembered to only do enough roast potatoes for the others too!....