I’m addicted to DKA

[NicoleC1971]

So glad to hear that your are back in the game. Your past sucks but you definitely do not!! Looking forward to hearing your updates and don't worry if some of those are less positive than this one.

 

[SamJB]

The best advice I would give you is to stay on the forum. Most people arrive here with rubbish control, but leave (or stay) with good control. There's no reason why you can't, but only you can change this.

I doubt there's a single person who has diabetes hasn't suffered from some degree of mental issues - having diabetes is hard. Certainly, your background will exacerbate this, but at least you can control your diabetes.

Take your insulin, go see your diabetes team (or GP, if you don't have one) and stay on here.

 

[Bella2017]

I had similar issues when I was first diagnosed because i was in complete denial, I still struggle now six years on. You are not alone, I've been on antidepressants to help and they do.

 

[Lisaandwill]

Hi, I’m 17, and I’ve experienced issues with my type 1 diabetes in recent months. I don’t take my insulin or test my blood sugars and although I know how dangerous this is, and the risks that ensue, but I can’t stop. It’s an addiction pure and simple, and it’s landed me in hospital many times in the past. I want to break the cycle but I’m not sure how. Does anyone experience, or have experienced this, and could give me some tips? I’m seeing a mental health team but it isn’t helping.

The first step is to acknowledge that this is a self attack! you need to see a good psychotherapist, psychodynamic, or analytic, which will help to reveal what is behind what is happening. Type 1 is not the problem here.
hope you manage to care about yourself enough to get some proper help, which I guess you do, otherwise you wouldn’t have posted. x

 

[Antje77]

Thank you everyone for your comments, they are all greatly appreciated. A recurring theme seems to be that you want more background information. Well, I grew up in care and have next to no family, which makes times like Christmas very difficult. I was also bullied for many years for being the “gay one” in the school I was in, even though I’m only bisexual. I used to do drugs regularly and binge on sugar for fun, but stopped those things about a year ago. I’ve lived in 14 different care homes and foster placements all over the country, so I don’t have many friends I can turn to for something so personal, mostly because I know they won’t understand. That’s enough about me. You will be pleased to hear that I’ve managed to regain some kind of control over my insulin, although it’s still very rough. I’ve managed to do my background insulin once a day for the past week, and I’m feeling more confident within myself, despite still being very emotionally unstable, due to my depression and PTSD.

Thank you everyone for engaging and giving me hard, but realistic comments. Updates to follow xx

Thanks for getting back with us! Very happy to hear you regained some control over your insulin
Please keep updating and come back to us when things are bad as well. We can't substitute a loving family or some very good friends, but we have a lot of virtual shoulders to lean on!
Good luck!