Hi @teeekilicious18 Well I have found over the last year or so every time I have a blood test it seems my EGFr levels are slightly lower each time now at 50 when diagnosed was at 63 so it seems I do have chronic kidney disease but is not causing me excessive problems at the moment.
So you are not alone I do hope you start to feel a little better about things soon. I and many here will understand your feelings of loss and grief for your former life I know the feeling well. It will get better over time but never really goes away altogether. it's a matter of adjusting to new circumstances.