Welcome Red. I'm T2 too. I can so relate to what you say. I think your story is familiar to many of us on a very personal level. I have to be half the woman I was at diagnosis :shock:
Well done for getting such a good result in a relatively short space of time, and without medication 8) 8) 8)
This site -
http://www.bloodsugar101.com- and finding my way to diabetes.co.uk by a happy accident, is what turned my life around. I also bought the book of the bloodsugar101 website from Amazon. The inforamtion I found there made me stop blaming myself quite so much. I have diabetes because I chose the wrong grandparents. Overeating and weight gain is a symptom of diabetes rather than the cause because our wildly fluctuating blood glucose levels leaves us constantly hungry.
I have reached the point when I think I will accept Metformin because I want to get a breakthrough to differnt numbers and because people on here tell me it will help with my weight loss. I don't intend to take metformin on a permanent basis, there are many people on here who have reduced the amount of medication they take and some have come off metformin as they have improved their control. I have come to think that Metformin will make the continued weightloss and reduction in blood sugar numbers easier on me. I have not been ready to accept medication up to now - I have done a lot of work on my own and I wanted my GP to see I have done the work, not the medication :roll: 8) I now feel I deserve something that may make it less hard work and get a faster result.
Understanding what food does in your own particular diabetic body is important to managing your levels. Also, we all have a complicated relationship with food - I know my relationship is about more than what I put in to it to keep it going! Especially around the time my period starts - I still get carb cravings then and my readings get a bit "squirelly", as my American friends say, even when I don't change what I eat.
What I don't see in your post is exercise. I have had my lowest readings after exercise. But don't overdo it to start with. Exercise can also result in liver dumps of glucose, but in the longer term you will be fitter, turn fat to muscle which metabolises insulin better, and generally healthier.
I think the NHS has very low expectations of diabetics being able to change their behaviour. I think that is about prejudice against fat people rather than accepting the advice it gives may not be right for diabetics - one size does not fit all with the healthy plate diet. I am a vegetarian low carber.
Ask questions, especially the food and diet forums. There is so much knowledge and great advice here. You have made a brilliant start, but you need to be sure that what you are doing you can stick to for the rest of your life, because that is how long you will have diabetes. Set yourself smaller, realistic targets, perhaps based on the next blood tests at the doctors, rather than loosing all the weight quickly. Give yourself a break, you are doing great!