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alexharrop

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its really tough to deal with diabetes at the moment knowing that its a life condition and that its not going away for my whole life. i cant deal with it anymore i want it to go away. i need help finding something to keep me on earth at this point. please help me.
 
For me diabetes was a lifesaver... its funny to say but perhaps it saved me from something worse than diabetes itself...
How long u had diabetes ? Btw its something u can live with. U can live a better, healthier life, be stronger than others. It cant stop u from doing the things u like...
 
It may seem like its the worst thing in the world right now, but believe me when I say it gets easier, I've had it for 15 years and yeah some days are hard, but then I remember it makes me unique which sounds silly, but you can't let yourself slip because of it, you need to try and stay positive.
If these feelings continue I would speak to your diabetic nurse/doctor asap, as i'm sure a lot of people may have felt like this and will be able to help you. This forum is here for you, never let diabetes get you down, it may be a life long thing but you've got to have hope there may be acure soon
 

hey dear it is a gigantic task, but it seems people learn to cope better along with time, I think you should have some support in real life face to face cant you get some support from some psycological team or alike.. it is so hard if you are alone right now ..?
 

Hi alexharrop, yes it is a life condition but you can live a very good life with it. Tell us more about yourself and your diabetes. I am T2 and have been diagnosed for 10 weeks. Yes I have given up lots of things I loved having but as they were making me feel ill do I really love having them ? - No I don't. Can you talk to your health care team or diabetic nurse that can refer you to specialist people. Lots of people on here will be able to offer advice if you are prepared to spill your beans a little more. Hope to hear back from you.
Tracy
 
thank you for your responses. im type 1 diabetes and have had it for 12 years. ive only recently become self dependent on my insulin and doing my prescriptions by myself. i was diagnosed at a critical stage or something and the hospital treatment was pretty traumatic. ive had physcological teams for a long time and have been in some form of CAHMS for suicidal tendencies for about 3 years. i have other medical conditions that make me want to kms as well like high vitamin d defficieny (severe aches i cant get rid of no matter how many pills i take.) and some eye stuff.

my carers dont really have time to support me. i feel very guilty mentioning anything because they get mad when i bring it up. they dont treat any medical concerns i bring up with seriousness. i dont know what to do. ill answer anymore questions.
 
To be honest you need people to listen to you, I know it's awful having other things as well as diabetes, it's ****, but you defo need a support system and people to speak to, it's not fair that you are feeling this way, what age are you? I've heard CAMHS can be pretty bad, maybe go back to the docs and ask to be seen by a psychologist?
 
I'm so sorry you're finding things very hard right now. Yes, it's for life but its not a life sentence. There's plenty of help so please see your DSN? could you get help from your g.p?
please talk to The Samaritans. They can be so helpful. Maybe just being able to talk with someone could help.
I wish I could help but please know I'm thinking about you.
 
Yes @alexharrop , you've just joined a rather exclusive club with a vast membership but no fees. Most 'members' were pretty well shocked to find they were eligible for membership, but T1s or T2s have found that the condition was something they could, with help manage. It ain't easy, but perfectly possible and folk on here have in many instances been managing the condition for decades.
It's really early days for you, so hang on in and you'll find things not as dire as you imagine. I was diagnosed T2 about 18 months ago and a very good friend diagnosed T1 about a month later and he reckons he's got an easier time of it than I have!
Anyway, keep posting and you'll get loads and loads of support and advice and sharing your experiences will help others too.

Dave
 

Hi alexharrop, how very sad that your careers get mad at you when you mention your concerns. Have you spoken to your doctor, practice manager or any members of your family about this, sometimes just speaking to somebody different does help but you may have already tried this. I would happily chat with you but have no medical training so cannot offer help there. Have you expressed your concerns at CAMHS meetings. Has anybody given you any suggestions before to help you?
Tracy
 

If you are having thoughts of suicide or emotional distress, it is important that you discuss them with someone who is experienced and able to help you. Speak to The Samaritans:

http://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help-you/contact-us

If you feel that you may be an immediate danger to yourself, please call 999 or go to your local accident and emergency straight away.

Please remember you're not alone.

Think about your future - your hopes and your dreams. They're there waiting for you.
 
I know it must feel so overwhelming but please if you take it one day at a time it will get better. It isn't something that is going to go away but it doesn't have to take away all of your life. As humans we are not able to cope when our lives and brains are too full of upset and stress. I think you need to see someone professional - gp or diabetes Nurse and tell them how you feel. I know if I feel overwhelmed I look at what else is bringing down - stuff I can change easily to take the pressure off. But right now it sounds like you are in crisis and need some extra help from your health care team.
 
Alex, can I ask how old you are? If you're still under CAMHS, you are in your teens?
I've seen your other thread, and I'm guessing that life is very difficult and isolating for you at the moment. Please don't think you're alone, there will be other that are going through/have gone through the same emotions, and there must definitely be other type 1 trans folk around!
Your CAMHS team should be supporting you more, and you may need to make some noise to get that support. Show them what you've written here.

We are a supportive (and sometimes argumentative!) community. Although there are many differences of opinion, we will do what we can to help you - so you are cared for.
 
alexharrop said:
high vitamin d defficieny (severe aches i cant get rid of no matter how many pills i take.)
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If you are seriously low in vitamin D, then that won't help your depression
http://www.independent.co.uk/news/s...-severity-mental-health-effects-a7369781.html

Are you saying that your doctor is prescribing you Vit D, or are you doing that yourself ? Either way, are you taking D3, a form some believe to be more effective.
Are your levels not increasing ?
I supplement with D3 myself. My daughter was recently found to be very low, but put on a ridiculously low dose by her GP (800 I.U.) I suggested a levelof 5000 I.U. which isn't far from the dose in these studies
http://www.nutraingredients-usa.com...-levels-but-D3-superior-for-sustaining-levels
Worth looking into
Geoff
 
maybe solarium can help you with your vitamin D.deficiency ... if you have a skin that can bear artificial sun
 
thanks again for your responses. sorry for not answering clearly. reading them ive realised i really dont know anything about my condition and how to manage it. its been managed by my carers for a long time because i was diagnosed at 5 (am 17 now) so i dont know what a practise manager is (havent heard of it) or a DSN.

i understand you are saying to get help from the gps and nurses but if im finding it hard to live whats the point? theres no point wasting their time if im going to kill myself anyway. ive always thought this idk if its a guily complex or something from my carers but i always feel like im wasting peoples time by talking about this stuff (i feel like im wasting urs right now, thank you for helping me.) saying that i have an appointment on thursday so i will try and talk about this then. im going to tell them i feel really unprepared to be fully independant on diabetes and i dont know anything. ill update what their response is from there.

Geoff - they prescribed me the same amount 800 after a really traumatic blood test. they didnt give me enough for a full term (?) and said they would prescribe me more. they havent and said they couldnt without another blood test (which from last experience im less than willing)

sorry for not being more clear, thanks again everyone for your time
 
alexharrop said:
whats that?
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You know This kind of Sun People pay to get like laying under a solarium lamp and on one too and getting tanned. When you get tanned from the Sun and also by such a lamp your skin creates vitamin D itself .

Your are not Wasting anybodys time we are all answering you because we want to . I Think the feeling of Wasting time is in yourself and not coming from People answering here . But it can be a typical feeling also part of depression . Many Young People do become depressed when They can not unfold their life and dreams and sometimes even have a hard time figuering out What They really want to use their life for .. it is an exsistential depression and it is important to try to do some of What one Dream of to start feeling the meaning of ones life even small thing like doing a hobby that really gives one joy , like dressing like one would like to look or Reading lots of good books or listening to favorite Music or even doing it oneself, try to look for small thing and acts that bring you joy , if you cant find anything Then go for long walks and Think of What the very best you would like to do would be and taking responsibillity over your own life is also a way to create meaning
 
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