Hi guys, it went OK. I just got very sick afterwards for about 10 minutes but they did get blood out of my arm very fast and I drank loads of water all morning... and the nurse was annoyed at previous nurse saying she must've been going too deep. I actually need to ask you guys for some more advice because I feel I am being discriminated against at work due to my health/diabetes. I've been crying most of the evening and having the ''why do I have this disease'' ''I'm such a burden'' thoughts going round my head.
A few weeks ago, I injected my insulin at work, then noticed someone had taken my lunch. I panicked as it was the one day I misplaced my emergency sugar as we had started hot desking and I forgot I took my can of red bull and jelly babies home with me the day before. I do accept responsibility for that. However, the next day I got pulled aside for a ''catch up'' by my manager.. I got told I overreacted, am being negative and to be mindful of other people around me that may get offended at my behavior. This was on a week where SHE KNEW my sugars were out of control and I had been crying down the phone to my diabetes clinic for help with no answer. I went home that night and cried my eyes out and felt horrible and guilty for upsetting other people with my condition - they don't know I am diabetic and probably assumed I am just being a brat.
I did pull my manager aside another day when I had some time to process the information and what happened, and I explained how if I am going to potentially have a medical emergency, what other people think of me is not my concern and they can judge all they want. She still did not understand and just compared me to her dad with type 2, saying he manages his with exercise, and suggested I take a walk around the lake on my lunch to improve my diabetes. (I actually did this one day for a charity walk and had a hypo before dinner) She did not understand how blood sugars effect my mood, either.
Today it happened again... they questioned whether my doctor's appointment was ''that urgent'', and mentioned that I only said anemia and suddenly I am talking about HBA1C, depression and thyroid. I didn't know these things, hence why I rang the bloody doctor, and he deemed it urgent based on my symptoms! My co worker also told my boss I had depression before I had the chance to, and they basically grilled me about ''how I come across to other people'' and mentioned I am still on probation and it sounded like a threat. They kept asking questions and trying to make MAJOR issues out of minor things or questions I've asked. Kept asking if I was OK, and almost didn't believe me? Asked more about the depression, made me feel very uncomfortable as if I was lying... I am so upset, this has just made everything worse. And I am so angry at my co worker for going behind my back like this. I wanted to wait for blood test results and plan of action before I approach my manager. Because now I am sat there looking like an idiot and unable to answer their questions... sorry for the rant, this is just so overwhelming.