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It all fell apart

xendistar

xendistar

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The last week has been a nightmare, I let myself have a few extras over Christmas day and boxing day fully intending to rejoin my eating plan afterwards. It never happened and I now feel guilty and gutted. Since I was diagnosed back in early November I have tried to stay on the straight and narrow where my diet has been concerned, there has been the slight hic up here and there but that was more down to learning what I could eat rather than anything else. When I have put my hand in the sweetie jar (so to speak) it was not to have a handful of sweets or biscuits but just one or two and they have showed up on my BS reading and as my BS reading went up so did my stress levels and then my old friend comfort eating payed a visit. Even then I managed to keep most of the urges to tuck in at bay, but with each BS reading heading in the wrong direction I became more stressed which all came to a head yesterday.

Why I agreed to cod and chips for tea I will never know, I am alright with a few home made chips which I have had in the past with other meals without issue but what possessed me to think that two oven cooked cod in batter would be OK I do't have a clue. Two hours later when I did my BS test it was like waving a red rag to a bull. I dived into a box of chocolates (plain one if that was to make a difference), I then hit the breadsticks and followed that with a last supper of 2014 of mini spring rolls, prawns in batter, veggie samosa and onion bhajis, there was also some red wine in there as well.

Today I have not done any BS test, this morning I would not of been able to face the results of last night. By mid day I had given myself a good talking to and agreed to have a day off from testing. With the intention of starting a fresh tomorrow morning. I have to get my self sorted as I only have 4 weeks till I have my 3 month review with the diabetic clinic and just over 4 weeks till my 3 months review with the doctor.

I had to tell my story to get it of my chest, I am not happy with myself, it as I explained to my wife, high BS leads to nerve damage which in turn can lead to serious issues like amputation so I know what the situation is, I used up all my second chances when the doctors told me to lose weight and exercise and for the best part I ignored them. Now I have to do it..............
 
We have all been there and it is worse for most people during the Christmas period.
You cannot change what you have done so stop worrying about it and get back on track. Stressing about it will cause a rise in blood sugars.
 
Xendistar, well, you could say you got it all out of your system. You had your big Christmas splurge and now it's over!

Forgive yourself, forget about it and forge ahead!
 
And how anout getting excess leftover food together and binning it first thing in the morning?

If you don't have it, you can't eat it! There's bound to be more excess in those cupboards, so why not tKe it to a food bank or in the bin?

Start a fresh...
 
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I had to tell my story to get it of my chest, I am not happy with myself, it as I explained to my wife, high BS leads to nerve damage which in turn can lead to serious issues like amputation so I know what the situation is, I used up all my second chances when the doctors told me to lose weight and exercise and for the best part I ignored them. Now I have to do it..............[/QUOTE]

Xendistar, if it is of any help, I have read in a few diabetes books (e.g. the Johns Hopkins Diabetes Book) that these scary complications do happen but only when there is a constant hyperglycemic index. Your fallout is transient and it will take a long time to do damage. I don't think it will as it was only over the holidays. Cheers.
 
Try and focus on moving forward now, it was a "seasonal" hiccup. You have got it all off your chest now and nobody here will mind, nor I doubt chastise you for it!
I know how it feels when you go off track and feel you have blown it - from many years ago doing low calorie etc, you beat yourself up and that leads to more feeling bad. Strangely, on lchf I have never experienced any of it though. Keep going, remember we are here to help!
 
Hi @xendistar. Please don't get into the vicious cycle of feeling guilty and blaming yourself, it can be very destructive. You've had a bad few days, put them behind you and start again. I think most of us have been there; its very difficult at this time of year, and easy to feel we are being left out when everyone else can over indulge. I certainly haven't been good as gold! The important thing is to forgive yourself and get back on the waggon.
 
Hi it happens but it was only a blip. I was reasonably good over Christmas - given a box of Thorntons and have only had about 4 however yesterday I had a houseful and did a buffet of mixed carb foods and I managed to stick mainly to the low carb food even resisting pavlova and cheesecake however the fruit salad got me. In addition late supper last night was high carb with brown turkey and lettuce roll and crisps followed by the last of the fruit salad!! Didn't test last night but this morning my FBS is 6.2 - higher than my normal but not as bad as I thought it would be!
The ironic thing is that i've been T2 for about 3 years but, before I joined this forum and started learning about low carb and testing etc, I was led to velieve that things like brown bread and fruit were healthy so would have no qualms about eating them!
You know what went wrong but, more importantly, you know why it happened so put it down to experience and get back to normal.
 
We all fall off the wagon occasionally and I know it is far easier to say don't worry than to actually do it. I have noticed that if my BS is high I always feel bad, thick headed, moody etc and as much as I want to reach for the chocolates I know that I am better sitting it out and drinking plenty of water instead, but that's not always the way it ends up. So I end up in a vicious circle of feeling bad as my BS is high and know that my BS being high is making me feel worse. It's a hard cycle to break.

As others have said its a new day and a new year, try and look at today as the first day of controlling it again. If you know you can't stop at only having a chocolate or a biscuit, then you might be better giving the rest away or binning it so the temptation is gone.

If the weather is as nice and sunny as it is here then I would advise that you wrap up warm and go for a walk, it will help bring the sugar levels down and will hopefully put you in a more positive mood as well.
 
Today is a new day ... Don't look back focus on forward ..draw a line under the extra eating and enjoy the feeling of getting the good numbers on the BS meter again....
Stress increases sugar levels ... So dump the stress .. Enjoy the day and get back to eating the way that keeps you healthy..
Hope it helps .. This is the lecture the wife gives me if I slip with my eating habits
 
I think you will find we have all been there and have the t-shirt! I know I have. So put a line under it and move on.... I know you can get back on track as can I and everyone else who has let loose over Christmas and New Year.

Not sure if it will help, but I weighed myself this morning and I have put on 2lbs during the Christmas and New Year period... So as penance I'm off for a walk into town to do my food shopping, with a trolley I have borrowed from my mum... Usually I would use the car as its a 2 mile walk there and back but the sun is shining and I need to start as I mean to go on.

Good luck and remember we are all here to help and support you
 
I ditto what everyone else has said. You can't do a thing about yesterday but you can do something about tomorrow. Throw away everything tempting from your cupboards, fridge, freezer. Do it now. Take it to a food bank or a needy neighbour. Go shopping and buy all those lovely low carb things. No more last suppers - start today. You did it once, you can do it again. Come back tomorrow and start recording your levels again , and watch your averages go down bit by bit every day.
 
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