sandymaynard
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Hi everybody,
This morning at 7am there was a knock at my front door, I answered it, I looked out to see my mum and Haley stood there! They had come to pick dog up!
I thought this is my chance to be able to say what I want! I made everybody breakfast! At 8am I asked if my fiancée and Haley could leave me and mum alone to talk they said no problem!
They said they would go shopping!
Once they left I asked my mum why she hates me so much?
She said I will change words to make them polite, I make her feel sick because I am there for everyone, always have been! I make her annoyed because I am like a mother hen always giving hugs and taking care of people!
I answered her by saying that is who I am, and that she should be proud of me!
She then went on to explain, how she did not want a kid, but Haley wanted a child, they went through tests and found out that Haley was infertile! She she said that she would carry the baby!
Then she went onto explain how much hard work I was while she was pregnant! I answered by saying simply... I did not ask to be born did I?
I did everything for you mum, when Haley was not around, I stayed awake at nights and kept a eye on you from age 4 to make sure you did not have a hypo in the night while Haley was working!
It was me who when you suffered one of your hypo' sand did not wake up for a week and in hospital it was me who held your hand and read to you! It was me who even though I struggled with reading because of my patch over my eye read to you.
It was me who missed out on school at times just to make sure you took your insulin and made sure that you had eaten!
It was me who made sure that you were never alone, I never had that many friends at school as my time was spent caring for you!
Not once mum did I ever ask anything of you, all I ever asked of you was to say well done, or I love you, or even a hug!
What did I get when you got into a rage, I would get a beating, broken bones, did I ever complain mum? No I did not I took it as I did not want to see you get into trouble or even get hurt!
With this for the first time in my whole life, my mum cried! I am so sorry she said!
Wow I thought she said sorry!
She then told me how she thought I was going to die as a baby!
I said explain, I made her a cup of tea and made her a sandwich made sure she took insulin!
Then she went on to explain, that when I was born, I was taken off her as I needed help to breathe as my breathing was shallow, there again she had been in labor for 5 days, so a lot had happened,
she never got to see me, as she had to have hysterectomy as her womb had collapsed!
She then explained it was 5 days before she saw me! Then she says the next few years were a blur as Haley took over with me!
I then explained to her all I want is for her to love me as she should! She is my mum, I love her no matter what!
She said that she will try but she is jealous of mine and Haley's relationship! I thought why? Then I released when I had a problem as a kid it was Haley I went to, my mum felt left out!
She sat there crying the whole time! She said I have missed out on so much of your life! I answered mum you have missed out on a lot of bad times! Be there for the good times! We can work on this but I need your help!
You have to accept that I am a mother hen always have been always will be, I can't help that! As over half of me is very caring! I don't have any nasty side of me! I can't even raise my voice, I would feel guilty for hurting someone feelings! She said it is good that you are there that way!
With that me and my mum were having a hug, when my fiancée and Haley came home, they said everything okay! We both answered yes.
My mum has gone now! I just hope that one day we can and will have a good relationship but hopefully this will happen! My main worry is that she wont change and we will be abck to stage one!
All I can do is wait and see! Hope fully this will be a turning point! I have decided to go up to Sheffield for my mums op in July as it will be a big op! Some sort of dye in eyes, as she has a blood clot in her left eye!
Sandy
This morning at 7am there was a knock at my front door, I answered it, I looked out to see my mum and Haley stood there! They had come to pick dog up!
I thought this is my chance to be able to say what I want! I made everybody breakfast! At 8am I asked if my fiancée and Haley could leave me and mum alone to talk they said no problem!
They said they would go shopping!
Once they left I asked my mum why she hates me so much?
She said I will change words to make them polite, I make her feel sick because I am there for everyone, always have been! I make her annoyed because I am like a mother hen always giving hugs and taking care of people!
I answered her by saying that is who I am, and that she should be proud of me!
She then went on to explain, how she did not want a kid, but Haley wanted a child, they went through tests and found out that Haley was infertile! She she said that she would carry the baby!
Then she went onto explain how much hard work I was while she was pregnant! I answered by saying simply... I did not ask to be born did I?
I did everything for you mum, when Haley was not around, I stayed awake at nights and kept a eye on you from age 4 to make sure you did not have a hypo in the night while Haley was working!
It was me who when you suffered one of your hypo' sand did not wake up for a week and in hospital it was me who held your hand and read to you! It was me who even though I struggled with reading because of my patch over my eye read to you.
It was me who missed out on school at times just to make sure you took your insulin and made sure that you had eaten!
It was me who made sure that you were never alone, I never had that many friends at school as my time was spent caring for you!
Not once mum did I ever ask anything of you, all I ever asked of you was to say well done, or I love you, or even a hug!
What did I get when you got into a rage, I would get a beating, broken bones, did I ever complain mum? No I did not I took it as I did not want to see you get into trouble or even get hurt!
With this for the first time in my whole life, my mum cried! I am so sorry she said!
Wow I thought she said sorry!
She then told me how she thought I was going to die as a baby!
I said explain, I made her a cup of tea and made her a sandwich made sure she took insulin!
Then she went on to explain, that when I was born, I was taken off her as I needed help to breathe as my breathing was shallow, there again she had been in labor for 5 days, so a lot had happened,
she never got to see me, as she had to have hysterectomy as her womb had collapsed!
She then explained it was 5 days before she saw me! Then she says the next few years were a blur as Haley took over with me!
I then explained to her all I want is for her to love me as she should! She is my mum, I love her no matter what!
She said that she will try but she is jealous of mine and Haley's relationship! I thought why? Then I released when I had a problem as a kid it was Haley I went to, my mum felt left out!
She sat there crying the whole time! She said I have missed out on so much of your life! I answered mum you have missed out on a lot of bad times! Be there for the good times! We can work on this but I need your help!
You have to accept that I am a mother hen always have been always will be, I can't help that! As over half of me is very caring! I don't have any nasty side of me! I can't even raise my voice, I would feel guilty for hurting someone feelings! She said it is good that you are there that way!
With that me and my mum were having a hug, when my fiancée and Haley came home, they said everything okay! We both answered yes.
My mum has gone now! I just hope that one day we can and will have a good relationship but hopefully this will happen! My main worry is that she wont change and we will be abck to stage one!
All I can do is wait and see! Hope fully this will be a turning point! I have decided to go up to Sheffield for my mums op in July as it will be a big op! Some sort of dye in eyes, as she has a blood clot in her left eye!
Sandy
hope your ok today
